Not sure what to say

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

OK not sure what to say or where to go. I have not weighed myself in two weeks but I know I gained a lot because my clothes don't fit. My boyfriend and I are trying to work things out with counseling, better communication and ABA therapy for my son (at home, at school, and through his therapist). It is a long process but we all want to be together we just have to see if it feasible to make it work.
I haven't done any working out or tracking in two weeks- I am slowing trying to get back into it. I know that I need to do it because I need something positive in my life to focus on it and I want to to be weight loss and getting healthy. I am not sure if I will be able to get to the gym this week because we literally have something planned every single day after school. But I am going to try to do what I can at home and work towards going three days a week next week. No promises and I am not holding myself to high high standards because honestly I can;t stand feeling like I failed at something else.
On a good note I am getting better at convincing my son to eat healthier foods occasionally (bananas, apples, and some peas and carrots mixed into some things.) I am trying to eat us through everything in the hose this month and next so we can save some money. But once this is all gone I will be doing more planing, budgeting, and healthier shopping. Saving money is key right now so that we can make ends meet, still pay for the therapy, and find some money for a sitter so that me and Emmett can get out a little bit. I am going to try to keep posting blog, reading articles, tracking, and working out when I can. I hope to see a change.
I feel like there are so many things in my life that I can't have control over at least I can have control over my body, the things I do to it, and what I put it in it so that is a good place to start. Well it is Tuesday- so I am just focusing on getting through this week- then we will see where to go from there.
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    ONE DAY AT A TIME. That is all you need to do love. Counseling sounds amazing. I dont live where you do, but I'm awesome at research so if you need me to look into resources let me know. I'm SO glad that he took a step back and decided to try to solve the problem instead of running. Who knows what will happen in the future, but at least you know that you are both giving this everything you have got, and your son will be better for it no matter what. You just worry about you and your family. Take extra steps where you can, be mindful of what you put into your body, sleep as well as you can and hydrate. You can and WILL do this. Loves! emoticon
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    Hang in there, lady! You can overcome this with some focus. I know things are all out of control, but this is one thing you CAN control - your workout schedule.

    It's the only thing I have control over right now and I am on it like a hound on a squirrel's scent. It's the only thing I can look at and say "I am proud that I did this today".

    So keep looking forward and keep a positive thought process and it will work out. And get a good sitter who likes to work a lot, as it sounds like you and Emmett can have some time to romance yourselves back into happiness! It CAN be done.

    I will be hoping for the best for you... and know that we are all here and close should you need someone to shout at.

    1886 days ago
    emoticon , sweetie. Hang in there! I know getting services for our kids can be challenging but you'll get it! Sometimes we have to really push. I've been fortunate so far in that no therapy has been recommended that isn't covered by our insurance. Although I have heard of other people with the exact same insurance having problems. I don't know what's up with that. My girl is even getting art therapy but it's technically just counseling. The therapist just likes to use art emoticon

    As far as the gym goes, personally I'm glad I'm not a member anywhere. I never have to plan a time to go and it's no big deal if I get busy! Between exercise videos on cable, on demand, on youtube, and other video services; as well as suggestions from fitness magazines, and 5 pieces of very inexpensive exercise equipment, I've been able to make a lot of progress without any membership fees! I have a rebounder (mini-trampoline), a little twisty thing with resistance tubes (excellent for arms and obliques), a large exercise (yoga) ball, a pair of dumbells that adjust from 2.5-12lbs each (by far my most expensive item at $70 from Kohl's), and a piece of a resistance band that my daughter's PT cut off from a full size one so she could do her work at home.

    See what you can do at home! Do squats or lunges to pick something up off the floor or a low shelf. In the kitchen, bags/containers of sugar or flour make great weights! Search pinterest for commercial break exercises. Some of them are intense!


    I just went back and read your previous blog. I'm so sorry. Will your boyfriend be able to adapt to the constant stress of having a special needs child? Not everyone is cut out to be one of us. I forget what the number is but I read where the divorce rate in special needs families is one of the highest. (It was my husband's special needs, not dealing with the children's, that broke us up). I truly hope he can be the man you and your son need and, if he can't, that you can move on with peace in your heart.
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    sending hugs and prayers that everything works out
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    *hugs* sorry for your struggles!
    1886 days ago
    One day at a time. I'm sorry you have to go through that, but I know you can get through it! Just take it easy, prioritize, and do what you gotta do.
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