Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I honestly don’t think there is anything to describe hunger better than weight watchers hungry monster commercials, I have never identified with something so much lol So I am finding out the depth of my boredom eating, yesterday I wasn’t really hungry at all but I just couldn’t stop myself from snacking! I just kept mindlessly shoveling it in, of course my snacking choices were a lot better than they use to be (before I would eat candy, chips and sugary snacks now I am snacking on fruit and special K crack chips) I just was so frustrated with myself for wasting calories when I wasn’t even hungry, it makes me feel like there is seriously something wrong with my outlook on food.
I do have to say after talking with a few of my girlfriends, I am funny about my calories like I will portion out a certain amount of something and inevitably someone like a co-worker, family member or child will want “try a bite” on the outside I smile and oblige kindly but on the inside I am begrudging them feeling like “dude this is all I get, you aren’t on a diet/lifestyle change back off!” I act like that one bite is seriously going to leave me lacking. The other pet peeve I have is when someone in the house or office eats my diet food when they are not on a diet and there is plenty non reduced things for them to eat… for the longest time I thought “arrgh food makes me CRAZY!” and this may still be true but the point being there are plenty of people out there that are the same kind of crazy right along with me lol behold the power of knowing you’re not the only one!
I’m sure many of sparkers have felt this way in the beginning of their lifestyle change but I actually feel like I look fatter in the mirror than I did at two weeks ago when I started this is probably why many people quit.. for me it is disheartening but at the same time I am trying to use this mirror image to fuel me to really watch my nutrition and push my workouts. I’m not sure if there is something else that can help with this.
On a positive note I did make a gigantic calendar for my goals, I had read a few places and on some other sparkers blogs that having this huge visual of my goals can be used to keep me accountable and motivated, even though I track my fitness on Spark I also write down how many calories on each day that I burned through in my workout, that might sound obsessive but it gives me a certain feeling of accomplishment each day that I can see so when I am not seeing physical changes just yet I can go look at what I am accomplishing on the inside of things.