This is gonna be a LONG one, so pull up a chair and your favorite beverage and lets have at it!
I've had these euphoric feelings before so I can cautiously post, but you know what Dave, it's MY life so I will be confident, positive and realize that at any time, my entire world can change in an instant, second, day or month. After all, you had a job for years and you were laid off in the beginning of 2013, so if that is not an indication of how humbling life can be what is?
I feel great today. I was 100% on point yesterday job hunting, I have my courses (teaching this semester) finalized and ready to roll AND I feel great (in the head).
Jon Bon Jove - yeah him...He's a Jersey native like I and while reading my Spark Coaches email to me this morning with some Java, I heard Bon Jovi on my Pandora "workout" channel. I was never a big fan - he appealed more to the women than I, but I listened intently as I was staring out the window for a few seconds. Hmmm... I like the tune, the beat, "oh, he just said 'It's My Life', let me continue to listen!". I did.
Well for the next 20 minutes (you know how the wonderful web is; you go to sign on to Spark and next thing you know, you're on YouTube and Wikipedia (or at least I was)...researching musical artists from the 80 and 90's that never really interested you.
I don't know what you call these 'things' that happened, but for me they were realizations or observations. As I was watching the video, I related a lot of my current situation to this song. A scene came up to show a 'beeper/pager' on the screen with message...
Full video here = I don't own this (Spark disclaimer so it's not taken down) www.youtube.com/watch?v=
I equated this to my body/mind (depending on the current scenario I'm in) looking for some guidance, relief, anything that can rescue Dave from his current state - this could be immediate or as a general theme throughout the next many months/years as I continue to search for what works for me. Where am I today, now, this week. Am I aware?
As the song goes:
'Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks'
* It's My Life lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, EMI Music Publishing, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
I hope I can continue this stage of self discovery and understanding that my thoughts and actions are my own and that when I was growing up,
- I did indeed feel and behave differently. I was on the swim team (biked 2 miles to practice each afternoon in the summers); sometimes twice a day if there was a swim meet.
- I worked out in the house with a stationary bike, I jogged, I used weights and an old school bench from the 1970's that was ripped and cracked to do bench presses and other exercises . Gyms were non existent back then for regular folks.
- I ate very well and always was concerned not to overeat or eat too much.
I was different. Maybe this has to do with having little to no stress as a kid/teenager. No bills, no family, no mortgage, etc.
Still discovering this fascinating thing we call the brain.
Have a great day!