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A process

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I wish there were a book I could read each day to tell me
exactly what to do to live consciously from my heart and
soul. But part of the mystery and magic, part of the reason
I'm here, is to try to stumble through and hear what the soul
has to say about what it needs at each moment--whether it
is to work through an emotional block, discover what the
next lesson is, meet the next soul mate (my children
are soul mates; my best friends are soul mates), or
finish my business with the one I'm with now. Ultimately,
for most of us, the journey comes down to the same issue:
learning to love freely. First ourselves, then other people. ~Melody Beattie

First ourselves, THEN other people. Lord knows I'm trying to learn how to love me. I'll do well for a bit but somewhere along the way, I stumble. I know that's part of life but I want so bad to get this right. I'm afraid of giving up like I've done in the past. But where would that leave ME? In defeat and despair.

Yesterday, I was on a good track. I was low on calories so I decided I could have a treat. Well needless to say, I went to far. I should have known better from past mistakes but my addict mind is cunning, baffling and powerful and I gave in. So here I am confessing my faults ALOUD.

SELF, can you hear me now????? emoticon

Forward and Onward, I go!!! emoticon
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    1519 days ago
    emoticon I'm cheering for you my friend!
    1520 days ago
    Appreciate you!
    1521 days ago
    I enjoyed this. Keep on loving you my friend. The next time you feel yourself slipping up...hug yourself a little tighter. I'm proud of you for making progress. You have my support.
    1521 days ago
    You are so right!! I've been researching and weight gain is tied to self-esteem which I run a little short on...... I know it is ridiculous because we each have our own gifts to share and on and on but it is tough sometimes. Retrain and rethink. It is a struggle but we are there with you and support you. Love your image 'bird w a FF' and will follow future posts. KEEP IT UP GIRL! YOU GOT THIS ONE! AND IF YOU DON'T, I'VE GOT YOUR BACK!!!!!! emoticon emoticon
    1521 days ago
    You go, girl! Life is such a challenge and I want that book also!
    1521 days ago
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