Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I always start out being nice to people and even after that I'm nice to people. What I don't understand are people that just start out unpleasant and then stay that way. I met someone at work who always seems in a rush, and frazzled and totally unprepared like their world is always coming to an end and they're always freaking out. Problem is, they're not nice at the same time and it's hard to avoid them. No smile or hello or good morning, no basic human pleasantries because they have that free pass to always be freaked out and stressed about everything at every second. On one hand I just can't stand those people. I feel like you either need to get competent or quit, being freaked out with spazzy energy all the time just isn't pleasant to be around. On the other hand, somehow I just have to make sure to be pleasant to this person without walking on eggshells since we have to work together. I noticed there is only one person she talks to at work. She is so focused on being negative and freaked out there is no point in interacting or trying to be helpful. I noticed when I spoke during a conversation I was totally ignored.
I think I'll keep it that way, and just stay silent. I wanted a year where I was the silent one and ignored for once and I think I like it. I'm on staff till the end of the school year so I'll just spend the Spring semester laying low again like I did for the Fall. I don't want to be overly noticed but I do want to try and get a permanent position here. What I can cultivate is a reputation for being quiet and without opinion, refraining from putting my 2 cents in, and always maintaining a positive outlook on any event that comes up. I think it's a good plan, keep getting the lay of the land and keep listening. I have a book to read all day, the suspension room should be pretty quiet today, only 3 students in there and the building is pretty quiet as well for testing. I'll be supervising the suspension room for 3 periods today and then I'll be back in here until we leave at 2:50pm. I'll be running out the door exactly on time today and what I want to do is get to my class at the gym tonight at 7pm.