Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I guess I would say I am struggling. It seem like everything is a battle right now.
It started last week when I had to have a tooth extracted. I have been in a bit of pain since. I have noticed the tooth in front is giving me pain I didn't have previously. I have a follow up tonight and hope there isn't any problems with the healing of the socket. I have heard the treatment for a dry socket can be worse than anything else. Grrr.
I have been instructed to refrain from strenuous activities from dental appt (Tues) til end of the week to be sure it would heal adequately. Well I kind of kept that. I did walk but I made sure I didn't breath through my mouth so there wasn't anything too exciting. I also did a couple of fitness videos for the 4 week challenge.
My eating has been really good considering I was taking it easy on consistency. Good thing I love my instant flavored oatmeal. And bananas. I actually made it through a weekend!!!
I have also been sleeping like crap. I thought it was all the water. I will wake up every two hours to go to the bathroom but usually don't have any problems falling back asleep. Well that had changed. I wake up around midnight. Then I toss and turn and have the hardest time falling asleep. If I do fall asleep I am still up around 2 and repeat. Sunday night I woke at 1230 and couldnt fall asleep. I tried everything!!!! I ended up sitting on the couch watching tv until 730. Then it was wake up at 930. Last night I was awake from 200 with tooth pain. I finally gave up trying to sleep around and made some coffee. Before it was finished brewing I dozed off and slept til 430 and I had to get ready for work.
And to top it off hubby and I have been stressed with one another and I just don't know what to do anymore. I just wish we could understand one another at least a little better than we do presently. It seems like we are living two different lives and neither of them include anything in common. I'm not expecting him to change for me. I just don't want to feel like I have to change and give up on my journey to make peace. That is one thing I can't give up. Not anymore.
Not sure if the tooth is hurting more than I think. Maybe its the lack of sleep. Or the stress with hubby. I just wasn't feeling it. Im just not feeling it still. I didnt workout one time this weekend. No workouts. No walks. Nothing! And this is not a good sign. I love working out. I am making myself like walking to the point that I am now starting to look forward to it. But it's been several days and I just didn't care. And it scares me to think I might have lost my motivation altogether.