this is written on my spark page so everytime i need it i can find it put once in a while like today i need to not only reread it but to rewrite it as well so it will sink in to my brain,lol.hope it helps you like it helps me.after that i will say the reason why i started emotionally eating.

if you are an emotional eater like me ask yourself this question it is what i am going to be asking my self alot.

CAN A PERSON OR EVENT SABATAGE YOUR EFFORTS IF YOU DONīT LET IT?

I HAVE THE POWER TO CONTROL WHAT GOES OR DOES NOT GO IN MY MOUTH:IT IS MY CHOICE AND NOONE OR NO CIRCUMSTANCE DOES IT BUT MYSELF I AM THE ONE THAT PICKS UP THE FOOD AND PUT IT IN MY MOUTH:I AM THE ONE THAT ACTUALLY SWOLLOWS IT:I AM THE ONE THAT HAS THE GUILT FOR EATING SOMETHING LATER I AM THE ONE ,WHO FEELS BAD FOR LOOSING CONTROL:I JUST HAVE TO ALWAYS REMEMBER IT IS A CHOICE:IT IS MY CHOICE, NOONE ELSES:I AM THE ONE WHO HAS TO FACE THE CONCIQUENCES NOT YOU OR WHO EVER IT WAS OR WHAT EVER IT WAS THAT MADE YOU LOOSE CONTROL AS THAT WHAT EMOTIONAL EATING IS .IT IS ABOUT LOOSING CONTROL FOR WHATEVER REASON:IT IS TIME I TAKE MY POWER BACK INSTEAD OF GIVING IT TO SOMEONE OR SOMETHING ELSE:I CAN DO THIS ONE STEP AND ONE CHOICE AT THE TIME:IT IS DOWN TO ME .JUST LIKE IT IS DOWN TO YOU WHAT YOU PUT OR DONīT PUT IN YOUR MOUTH:LET US ALL DO THIS ONE CHOICE AT A TIME AND REJOICE WHEN WE MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE;FORGIVE WHEN WE MAKE THE WRONG CHOICE AND CARRY ON TO THE NEXT CHOICE:THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THE NEXT CHOICE GOD WILLING:YOU CAN DO THIS;I CAN DO THIS ;WE CAN DO THIS:

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the reason i emotionally ate today was such a small thing,nothing big just small.it was out of a thoughtful gesture from my husband he had brought me a really nice new insulated water bottle very modern(he has now took it with him or i would have taken a photo)and has like a sloping lip with a whole in it to drink from.so this morning i filled it up with ice cold water and went on my treadmill.then it happened i went to take a drink out of the bottle and because of the lip of it ,with my facial paralise(which is nearly back to normal now but not quite)the water instead of going all in my mouth half dribbled down the side and down my neck and top.i was horrified and immedately councious once again of the paralise(there are times now i even forget about it which is great)this wasnīt one of them times.i was more aware than ever and i got depressed,it didnīt help that i had had a rough night last night with ayyub and ayman as they were both coughing all night.ayyub even stay4ed off school today as he was 39 when i took his fever.because ayyub was staying home ayman wanted to stay home from kindergarten but as he had no fever i took him underprotest knowing what a mean mommy i am(aymans words,lol)anyway i have indulged in emotional eating for a few hours.i wont go in to details on what as that is not relevant.what is relevant is that i am making the choice to stop it here and now and not let it go on for dayīs even weeks.I HAVE THAT POWER.and for all of you out there that is in the same boat as me re emotional eating. YOU HAVE THE POWER AS WELL:IT IS YOUR CHOICE.i am still depressed about not being able touse the new water bottle,my being reminded of the facial paralise etc but i feel better at the same time for stopping the sensless eating now.I HAVE ACHIEVED AT LEAST SOMETHING:

anyway thank you all again for reading this and an extra thank you for those of you who actually take time to like it or reply.i think you are all great but know this blog was more for me this time and it has helped.take care and keep smiling.