Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I had an appointment with the Physician's assistant at my Doctor about weight management. Her philosophy is to count calories and keep your glycemic index low and steady throughout the day by primarily focusing on high protein foods. She encourages her clients to use My Fitness Pal to track calories and nutrients. I have been doing so for a couple of weeks and I am really challenged. I had decided to drop WW and just use MFP. It felt really scary but I didn't feel like I could do both. I haven't liked it. I am really hungry and feeling deprived. WW has worked well for me. I just feel like I keep quitting everything and that is why I am not getting anywhere. I also started this small group training class last week it meets on Tuesday and Thursday mornings from 5:45- 6:30. It totally kicked my butt and I really loved how great it felt to be done with my workout so early and I had a ton of energy for the rest of the day. I just realized that my husband has to leave the house at 6 am from now on because his new clinical rotation is kicking in. So I don't feel right leaving my kids alone to get ready and get on the bus. So I feel like I am quitting something else.
My stress level has been crazy. Last week I got up to go to the early morning class and for some reason my garage door didn't go up all the way and I backed into it and smashed my back window out and scraped the back of my new car. So there goes $250 for the deductible. My cat got into a horrible fight and had the worst infection from a bite on his chest that our vet has ever seen in her 26 years of practicing. So gross- I won't go into detail but we have been warm compressing and there is a huge hole the size of a quarter in his chest that needs to heal on the inside before they want it to close up. There goes another $350ish. Then I am helping out my friend that is losing her house by taking in her 13 year old daughter for 6 months- she arrived Sunday, with her 3 year old lab that was supposed to be here temporarily until they found somewhere for her but now it appears to be falling on me to be the bad guy and say she has to go somewhere. Ugh HOw do I get myself into these things!!! I am really afraid of any vet bills as now I have 3 dogs and 2 cats in the house, not to mention feeding them all and keeping track of them.
So yeah, stressed out, feel like a failure cuz I want to go back to WW and really track my food. I guess I am just going to do that.