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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

After having a not so minor meltdown earlier tonight my husband finally was able to get through to me. I have been feeling like a failure but then when I told him where I was weight wise when I started to where I have come he reminded me that my body is in full on panic mode b/c I am kicking it into high gear and having PCOS is making it that much more difficult b/c my body doesn't want to give up the weight as easily as other people. When I said it out loud things began to make sense. I am putting way too much pressure on myself to get to that magic number I think I have to be at by a certain date. That's a guaranteed failure. I have lost a total of 9 lbs since I started and gained about 5 back. Depressing yes but encouraging none the less b/c I can and will do this. So now instead of focusing on the number on the scale I'm going to focus on how much farther I can run on the treadmill everyday or how much stronger I am getting while strength training and just focus on eating as healthfully and cleanly as possible. Eventually I will win this battle and the fact is that it took a loooooooooooong time to get this way and it's going to be slow and painful to take it off and then keep it off.
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    Yes! Yes! Yes! You must be suffering from "I'mdoingtheworkbutstartingtofizzle
    " so take strength!!! I weigh myself once a week as a check in, but I've started setting my weekly goals on non-weight related things. YOU have the right idea - it's all the other stuff that will chip away at that magic number!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!! By really focusing on the work, the victories - you'll kick that body into where you want to go!! Tell your Hubs he is the best for helping to keep you centered too - it's great that he is a great support for you! :)
    1879 days ago
    Great shift on focus!! Stress especially when pressuring yourself, can add on weight.

    Also something else that you may not realize, if you're pushing yourself harder with cardio and strength training, you're converting fat to muscle which can seem like you're not losing but really you're losing FAT but gaining MUSCLE =]

    If you keep fighting for the results you want, the #'s on the scale will have no choice but to come back down. It's up to you to decide how hard you want to fight for it =]

    Good luck!!
    1880 days ago
    emoticon I think you have caught on to something extremely valuable! You are smart to focus on how much farther you run and how many more reps you can do. I am struggling to do that myself right now. The scale isn't moving! But I can see that my running is getting better and I can do more push ups than I could even a week ago. We can do this thing together. It doesn't mean it will be perfect. But, to quote Jillian Michaels "Perfect Sucks!"

    1880 days ago
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