Monday, January 21, 2013
I have a friend that gets mad at me every time the subject of my purging comes up because she thinks I'm doing it just to get attention and I can quit any time I like. honestly I wish it were that easy, I have no control with food. If it were a choice between anorexia and bulimia (not that i'm saying either is a good choice but as the lesser of two evils) I would def lean towards the anorexia side of those two options. But I think the main difference here between those two is that someone that's anorexic chooses not to eat and someone that's bulimic chooses to eat but controlled eating. I don't know about anyone else on here but as someone with some experience in that area I have NEVER started eating something with the thought of purging it. it is always "oh one cookie shouldn't hurt anything" and then an entire package later.... idk some people might plan out their binging and purging but I never have, it usually sneaks up on me unfortunately. People that think its just a switch u can flip frustrates me so much cause I know it's all with the best of intentions but they are really clueless how much control something like that can take of ur life :( kinda like people understanding ocd or phobias.