So today is the first time in a while that I’m feeling down, went to the doctors yesterday for my blood test results, Walked away with several boxes of pills, another blood test form and a tiny case of shock.
These test were done at the initial start of my weight lost journey and, showed high levels of Uaric acid, dangerously high cholesterol and my thyroid levels were back up, however my doctor does believe that it would have gone down a fair whack with the changes I have made recently. However still not enough to the avoid the new medication or a 2nd round of blood test or the instant craving for everything bad to make myself feel better, a habit formed over many years of eating when I was down.
Perfect Example, waiting for my blood test, all I could think about was how to justify a sausage and egg mcmuffin for brekkie,- things like, oh I’ll swim a extra lap or I’ll only have a small dinner.
Jebus Maria, the doctor had only just told me NO More sausages, egg yolks or cheese, and here I was wanting to eat crap, to make myself feel better. I would have been upset with myself, because I would have had 2 muffins, maybe 2 hash browns a medium coke, and to be honest with myself, the only reason I didn’t get to maces was because i had my husband car, which is a monster to drive.
Its only now, that I think about the fact that these thoughts and cravings are reason I was sitting there in the first place- Vicious cycle and I’m the only one that can break it.
Maybe a swim this afternoon, can help me clear my head
Grey and dark out side, a little wet…..