Monday, January 21, 2013
Sometimes you have to accept disappointment and face it head on. I did pretty good during the holidays for the most part. ...... Well not as good as I should have done. I either gained a lot of muscle or excess body weight. Since I was experiencing pain in my knee and foot and only strength trained 5 days in the month of December. I am positive it was from not following my plan to the letter. My last weigh in said 259. WTH! Well this is what happens. How do I handle this little dilemma.
This could not have come at a worse time. I did walk a lot,but evidently not enough. My portions were too big and late night eating was not being controlled as well as it should have. I was starting a new job that I was going to have to fit working out in there some where. This is all a part of the living and adjusting to a healthy life style. You have to live everyday life and continue to stay the path . I was dealing with pain and not as aggressive in my exercise pursuits.I am only human,right,or am I something more.
There are a lot of things going on,but that is all a part of everyday life. I had to make adjustments. My wife decided we had to get a gym membership. I was going to join another gym. I have a lot equipment,but there are other machines that I wanted to use. We got our membership and I was trying to not be intimidated. I mean I tell others to not be ,but I was going to a place where I was a beast. I was young,muscular and walked around that gym like I owned it. That was almost 20 years ago. Now I am an aging,middle-aged out of shape man. So I had fear in me. I am not as strong,as athletic. I went on bodybuilder.com to find a work program for a man my age with what I want to accomplish. The workout looked brutal. Can I do it?
I felt like a hypocrite. I get so many praises for my work ethic,was I doing enough to earn it. I did workout but I was physically not as able as I was before the holidays. My sparkfriends feeds were losing 2 pounds,losing 3 pounds. Mine stayed the same. I am the type of person who can be genuinely happy for others. I was happy to encourage others.
I decided that enough is enough. I started my new job and It is a big college and I do a lot of walking. I went back to the track.I could not run but I added an extra mile to my walk. I went back to strength training with a vengeance. I weighed myself last Sunday and it said 252. I was a pound away from my needle. I was happy. Now...........................
Today I spoke to my alter ego, the Midnighter. Don't laugh,he is driven more than LaVell is. He knows what he wants. We were going to the gym today,damn the youngsters,damn the muscleheads,damn them all,because he is the Midnighter and it will be D-O-N-E.
Well it got done. The muscle heads did not exist for me. I strolled around the gym like it was mine. I rode the bike,went into the weight room and ended with another session of cardio.
I looked into the big mirror and I was covered in sweat,knees wrapped by blue braces. He ( The Midnighter) spoke to me. He said,"Stop being afraid.You can do this. You are not here for anyone except yourself." I saw myself smiling.
2013 is a new start for me. I have lost 7 pounds,but it will not be on my scale.But I take away that I lost weight. I am not on a plateau. Did I celebrate it,I sure did. I won't quit. I refuse to.The Midnighter refuses to. It is funny to think of it that way.
So I am human after all,but with one small exception. I refuse to wallow in it. I won't revisit it. Moving on.
One last thing. I am a man who does not have many heroes. I am a great admirer of Dr. Martin luther King Jr. I think he is a man who's vision transcended just African- Americans. It was for equality of all people. A man who used conviction and was passionate in his pursuits. Can any one of us say the same. Let today be a day of peace,love and equality for all people.