Monday, January 21, 2013
I have been making bad choices, mostly food wise. I know that I shouldn't eat excessively, I know I should eat fresher, non processed food. I know that my food choices are directly effecting my goals. I know that I would like to be more fit and I know that the way I'm eating isn't going to do that.
I do know I am too hard on myself, but I feel like it's the only way to keep myself real. I have to hate myself. I also know that's not true. I know that I need to be real with myself but I really should never hate myself.
Making bad choices always makes me feel like I'm a let down, it makes me feel disappointed and often it makes me feel like a failure.
But I am not a let down. I should never be anything other than proud of myself, never disappointed. And lastly I AM NOT A FAILURE! The only way I would be a failure is if I quit trying. As long as I am still here, still trying then I am succeeding. The only time you truly fail, and I mean TRULY fail is the day you give up all hope and just QUIT! A true failure is someone who doesn't try, and by god I will NEVER quit trying. I will never quit pushing myself, I will never quit fighting for what I want.