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I just don't get it

Monday, January 21, 2013

I am 60 lbs higher.. back on. I just dont get what happened to my spark.. my drive... I lost it. I want it back and can't seem to get it! I will do awesome for a week and then the next.... Im awful!!! I want my size back.. I want my health back, my muscles back, my drive back, my charisma back!!!!


I REFUSE TO BUY ANY CLOTHES SO IM LIVING IN SWEATPANTS!!!!
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ELSCO55 1/21/2013 8:45PM

    I am with you. I started back to Weight Watchers today. Hope they can reignite the spark. Day one here. We can do it.

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TEACHFIRST268 1/21/2013 6:44PM

    I completely understand what you're feeling. It's hard to stay 100% motivated 100% of the time!

I've gone up and down, yo-yoing, several times in my life. I realize that once I get to goal (whatever it will be for me) the hardest part is going to be to keep it off. But during the journey, when you feel like you have so much to lose, at times it seems unattainable.

That's when the small goals, and REWARDS come in. Set a 5 or a 10 lb goal. Then think about something you could earn when you get there. Folks say don't reward yourself with food, but I've had a night out for dinner - heck, I do every Saturday. But I order something sensible. The reward for me is not having to cook! Find something like that for yourself, something you can look forward to after working hard all week, or after 5lbs lost.

The other thing - when I'm in that woah-is-me-this-s*cks funk....I get real with myself. I know that feeling is temporary and I have to push through it. I give myself two choices:
1. I can eat this (or sit on my butt and not exercise) and slowly fall back into my old, unhappy, unhealthy and stay/get bigger (I DO NOT WANT THIS!)
OR
2. I can do what needs to be done and keep pushing forward, knowing if I continue to make this good choice, it will add up and I will EVENTUALLY see results, even if they don't come as quickly as I want them to.

You know you can do it...you already did. When you reach those moments of weakness just buck up - get no-nonsense with yourself - and ask yourself, TRULY ask yourself what you want. If you're ready for change, you'll make the choice that will get you there! Only you can do it. And you will when you make that decision!!!

We're rooting for you!!!!

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p.s. I'm also so done with beating myself up over it all. I choose to see the yo-yoing as part of the journey. Had to go through all that to get to where I am going! We are so unkind to ourselves on this journey sometimes. That's been one of the most difficult things for me to see and start changing - but I am so much happier now. I haven't fully mastered it - but I'm getting there!

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ICHOOSETHIN 1/21/2013 2:14PM

    I've lost my spark too and have tried to find it again but I struggle more often than not. I lost 43 pounds and have gained 32 of it back. Blah! I feel terrible. I am not giving up though and neither are you. Today is a new day. Lets make it a healthy one.

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AMYSLOVED 1/21/2013 2:11PM

    Hi there read ur blog, my advice is this keep saying to urself " which choice do i make today? EAT N EAT N EAT GAIN N GAIN more or limit yourself, get back on the wagon, remember all that energy u had before, IF U WANT IT, U CAN DO IT" :)


Good Luck with gettin things back on track!!!

Amysloved- amy

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