Monday, January 21, 2013
How did I do this before? How did I lose nearly 80 pounds and keep it off? What changes did I make? What magic pill did I take? What crazy diet did I do? What happened?
To be perfectly honest, I don't know! The only immediate changes I made was to eat less and exercise more. I had 3 credits in college that I could do anything with and took exercise classes. Grades and school motivated me, so I made it a part of my homework. After graduation, I joined a gym and spent $$$ on a personal trainer not once but twice.
These were all good changes, but they were temporary changes. Nothing I did, even though I experienced success, has had lasting change. I didn't retain any routines or habits when it came to eating or exercise. I just went to something different, and it would work for a little bit and fade.
Right now, I am currently in a book study/Bible study with a few friends to hold me accountable for the changes I make. I am praying that this is where the bottom falls out...I pray that the root of my food issues will be dug up and drawn to the surface and be dealt with once and for all.
I have noticed recently that I have a way with words and expressing myself, but I have no motivation or drive to go after the goals or ideas that I express. I am tired of being full of hot air or words on a pages. It is time to GO and discover the cause and address it and build good healthy routines from there.
In the middle of all of these temporary changes, I have come to own my issue as a spiritual issue. I have seen God's hand in my journey so far and continue to seek Him as I continue.