My "rock bottom" story...
Monday, January 21, 2013
I have focused a lot on my day to day life in my blogs. This has been very helpful for me because one of my goals for this year is to be more mindful of what I do when it comes to becoming healthier and the choices I make. I have spent this weekend away from my comfort zone, my apartment. And that has got me thinking about why I started on this journey anyway.
Over the holidays my family took a trip to Green Bay Wisconsin. I am a huge Packer fan and we went to tour Lambeau Field and the Hall of Fame. It was great! We watched players come back from training, ate at Curly's restaurant and learned lots about the team. After the day at the field, we went to the Pro Shop. I was so excited to get something new to share my Packer Pride with the world and since I live in Illinois, my options are not all that great when it comes to Packer t-shirts or sweatshirts. But when I got to the Pro Shop, I was so disappointed. I searched through everything in the store and there was nothing that was made for my overweight body. There was lots of stuff for tiny women, but that isn't me. There was stuff for "Big and Tall" men, but those don't fit my hips or chest and I am sick of buying those kinds of clothes, things that don't really fit. So, I left the Pro Shop so upset. I was angry at myself for being overweight, I was upset that the Packers weren't considering me in their fan base, and I was overall committed that this would never happen to me again. The next time I walk into that Pro Shop, I want to look for the "regular" sizes. And I will reward myself with new Packers gear when I get to that goal size. That is what keeps me motivated right now.
As for my weekend, I'm still doing good. Yesterday was the first day that I actually ate enough calories to get to my goal range of calories. I went out to lunch in an actual restaurant and picked a salad instead of pizza, and it wasn't too difficult to make that decision. I just had to make up my mind before going to lunch that I was going to really consider my choices and what was the healthiest. I didn't feel deprived either. Someone I was with also ordered garlic bread with cheese, and I did have one piece but I didn't feel like I needed any more than one.
For dinner, my mom helped to teach me how to bake chicken and make baked sweet potato fries. It was SO good. Cooking is not my strength, and I think I just need to start cooking in bulk each weekend. Maybe that will help me to have chicken to add to meals through the week. Anyway, for dessert, we had an apple that was cooked in the microwave, with a tiny bit of agave syrup and lots of cinnamon. It was something new for me, but kind of tasty and another serving of fruits for me!
Now I have a day to get homework done, unpack from the weekend and get ready for the week ahead of me. This means hard-boiling some eggs for lunch this week, and making a grocery shopping list. I know that I'm staying on track, I know I'm losing weight and I know my clothes are already starting to fit better. Surrounding myself with positive messages, keeping my goals in mind and staying connected with Sparkpeople are helping me to have these successes. Thanks everyone, and have a great week!!