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Snatching Defeat from the Jaws of Victory

Monday, January 21, 2013

I really feel this is what I have been doing. I've been so focused on the fact that I still have a few pounds left to "GOAL" that I've missed all my victory along the way. Sure, I have a few pounds (between 10-12) left to my ultimate GOAL but I've had so many GOALS that I've hit along the way. Today, I celebrate those. This week, I celebrate all my victories.

I have lost 47 lbs in the last year. I weighed in at 191 on Feb 1. Admittedly, that was 9 months pregnant and what they weighed me in before my c-section... but I had gained 61 lbs during my pregnancy. So, I've lost all but 14 of those pregnancy pounds. And, I was actually at a lower BMI than I probably should have. I had to gain weight to get pregnant. Ahhh... Hollywood and the lure of the size 00. I have a much more realistic GOAL this time around. I'd love to fit back in my size 2/4s but if I don't lose another pound, I'm great. I'm GREAT!

Saturday night, I went out to a very fancy dinner with my hubby. I got all dressed up. I pulled out my strapless little black dress. Size 8. It's a little big. (I still wore it, but... it was a little too big.) I'm wearing size 6 jeans today. I bought a DKNY sweater the other day... a name brand sweater, not walmart. I spent a little money on myself. And it was a size S. And it looks good. I don't need XXS on the label of my clothes.

Yesterday, I was walking between churches (we attend a smallish church, so we do Sunday school with another small congregation at their building)... and I was whistled at. Twice. Wearing jeans, that new sweater, and a jacket and scarf...

I can run for hours. Literally hours without stopping to walk. I'm not fast. But, I've got endurance. I can run for hours!

I've got some serious arm muscles coming along. I recently started ST regularly. And it's paying off. I'm liking it. I'm starting to develop that line down the center of my abs, the beginnings of a 6 pack.

I'm flexible. I'm really flexible.

I am really liking who I am and who I am becoming.
And so, goal weight or not... I'm declaring Victory. I am victorious. I AM a success story. I don't need to weigh in at 127 (my old GOAL) or 133 (my current GOAL) to be victorious. I am victorious at 144. I am victorious because I've still lost over 110 lbs from my highest weight ever. I've victorious because I know how to eat now. I know how to stay and be active. I'm victorious.

And I'm DONE. No more holding on to my defeat. I'm DONE snatching it back. Victory. Success. It's mine.



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4EVERADONEGIRL 1/22/2013 4:38PM

    This is freaking AWESOME!!!! So glad you are celebrating because you have certainly EARNED it! Super proud of you, girlie!

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WALLAHALLA 1/21/2013 11:25AM

    So emoticon that you are facing the TRUTH about who and what you are. You are an inspiration and a motivation to others, especially me!

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