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Monday, January 21, 2013

No, no more cake. Please, no more.

Forgive please; this may be a rambling run-on of a blog.

I am not sure if I should confess.
Not sure if I need to confess.
I will none the less.

Last week I had reached a pit of a breaking point. Too much exercise, not enough protein, not nearly enough sleep, all left me in pain and weak as a kitten.

So I decided to rest a little and feed up (good food) and recover.

Instead I got a bit of chaos.

I admit that the whole weekend was an all out calorie orgy.

FRIDAY: I started well with a protein pumped dinner (but almost no veggies). I only did my short video for the Jan Jumpstart challenge as well as some nice gentle stretches.
Then I had a meeting for the Local Home Brewers Association that I had promised to host 4 months before.
I made them cheese toasts and other snacks. I ate ALOT of them myself. I also had SEVERAL beers.

NEGATIVES: Beer, Carb overdose, and still not enough sleep
POSITIVES: Earlier in the day I had done a very good job of recognizing my burnout and taking steps to heal myself.

SAT: Got up, I had not slept well, and hydrated myself. I had three eggs and one slice of toast. I was still trying to amp my protein. Body was still sore so I opted not to do a morning work out.
I went to a friend’s house to help paint her condo (she was having an all out painting party)
I was actually expecting a veggie platter and other semi good stuff (she had promised food)
I got there and instead ate a donut and 3 tiny pastries. Plus several helpings of Cheese and crackers (oh and olives). And three slices of Pizza when it was ordered later. And my parents took me out to dinner that night.
Yes, I spend a few hours painting, but really I do not think I burned nearly as many calories as I consumed.
I felt fat and lazy (but tired) when I got home so I made myself do my video requirement and about 20 minutes of cardio before bed.

NEGATIVES: No Food Discipline at all.
POSITIVES: Movement and a small amount of repentant workout (was trying to respect my muscles need for rest so did not was careful not to overdo that either)

SUNDAY: Slept okay, but still not enough. Another protein centric breakfast. Then my best friend and I went to a local Bridal Expo.
I want to be fair and announce in advance that I was well aware of and planning the calories that I would be consuming at this event.
Savory Catering samples and lots of cake. And Doubletree cookies. Some of it I consumed there and some I consumed later at home and at the College Hockey game I went to that afternoon. (I shared the cookies with My BF and his son, ate another cake sample)
I really SHUDDER to think of the calories.
After I got home from the game I got on the treadmill and did a really good sweaty burn.
Felt great. It had been several days since I had worked it like that!

Of course then I had curry dinner, a glass of red wine, and another piece of cake.

The GREAT NEWS is that I slept really well last night for the first time in like 10 days.

NEGATIVES: Planned indulgence turned into a slow all-day binge of sorts.
POSITIVES: Fantastic workout and fulfilling sleep

So this morning I really pissed myself off. One of the bakeries had given us each a gourmet cupcake in a box to take home.
You know the kind. Huge, three inches of frosting. Beautiful. Apparently filled with more frosting in the Middle. Mine was an Oreo cupcake.
I had it for breakfast. Or maybe half of it.
The frosting was too much. Half way into it I felt nauseated and gross and I admit I threw the rest away. (ok, first bite in I thought it to be way too sweet and didn't want it, it just took me several more bites to get rid of it)
Why was I pissed off? Because even though I had planned to save it for today, I really didn't want it. So why did I eat it? Because it was there.


Right now I would kill for a spinach salad. I am really craving veggies.
Of course I have none at work.
I wish I had found time to go to the Farmers Market this weekend.

I am down a half a pound from last Monday. I cannot help but wonder what that number would have been without the shameless Calorie Circus. However what is done is done.

Still working that January Jumpstart challenge.
I am really going to try harder to eat the RIGHT foods this week so that I do not end up crashing again.
Tonight’s dinner is a lean pork stir Fry with Veggies, served over rice.
After the usual Monday after work work-out with JAHINTZY.
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    I gave up dieting altogether. I quickly gained 20 pounds. Since Jan I have lost 8.
    1697 days ago
  • STODD251
    Yeah... I had a similar weekend as far as quality of food, although not so bad on actual calorie counts. I know I'm using my stress and illness to justify it, but honestly it would be better for my body if I actually ate right. Junk food does not help you feel better. Sleep and nutritionally sound foods are going to be my focus this week, even though I still have to keep apartment searching.
    1703 days ago
  • KONRAD695
    Sometimes you hit a very bad bump in the road. Once in a while you have to get out, but air in your tires, and adjust the alignment.

    Well, you hit the bump, fast and hard. You've stopped, accessed the damage, and are ready to straiten out the tires. Now just keep moving in the right direction.

    I'm not saying to forget about it. Be pissed at yourself, those actions were wrong for you and your health. Now it's time to learn, remember, and move forward. Think positive and you may find the fallout may be better than you think. emoticon emoticon
    1704 days ago
    OH MY GOODNESS!!!! That is exactly what happened to me! It all started with good intentions. In fact, I called it my "Recovery Diet"... high protein, lots of fiber, etc. But then I just went crazy! And I did have cupcakes too... gourmet ones with LOTS of frosting. Wow. We must be on the same wave length or something.

    You're doing such much better than I am, though. I haven't worked out in over two weeks. I've been so depressed. I'm so proud of you for trying and doing your best and exercising. Instead of half of a cupcake, I had four! That was when I was PMSing and before the crack-soup.

    Keep up the good work! I hope you have a great day tomorrow!
    1704 days ago
    I love your weekend. Sometimes, you have to let your body rest and that CAN mean letting loose on super-strict dieting and exercise. My body responds to a binge with a loss (if it's a LIMITED binge) and if I rest, I get stronger next time I lift. I think you have to program in some down time - maybe not every week but maybe every couple or three.

    As long as you do things mindfully, I don't feel like there were any mistakes. You can make different choices next time, but this time you made better choices than you did last time. (I know, that's confusing. Basically, you made better choices than in the past when you wouldn't have worked out, would have eaten MORE, etc.)

    And pork stir fry with a real AND SP friend sounds like a big ol' win. (Throw out any samples you have left. yick. old cake.)
    1704 days ago
  • APED7969
    Sounds a bit like my weekend! At least you recognised your mistakes and can learn from them. Hopefully I will learn from mine too! :-)
    1704 days ago
    pork stir fry! I'm excited for tonight now :)

    We both had iffy weekends with too many carbs (from almost all the same sources, ugh). And hopefully you don't have any more samples left, so it's over and done with - let's move on :)
    1705 days ago
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