No, no more cake. Please, no more.
Forgive please; this may be a rambling run-on of a blog.
I am not sure if I should confess.
Not sure if I need to confess.
I will none the less.
Last week I had reached a pit of a breaking point. Too much exercise, not enough protein, not nearly enough sleep, all left me in pain and weak as a kitten.
So I decided to rest a little and feed up (good food) and recover.
Instead I got a bit of chaos.
I admit that the whole weekend was an all out calorie orgy.
FRIDAY: I started well with a protein pumped dinner (but almost no veggies). I only did my short video for the Jan Jumpstart challenge as well as some nice gentle stretches.
Then I had a meeting for the Local Home Brewers Association that I had promised to host 4 months before.
I made them cheese toasts and other snacks. I ate ALOT of them myself. I also had SEVERAL beers.
NEGATIVES: Beer, Carb overdose, and still not enough sleep
POSITIVES: Earlier in the day I had done a very good job of recognizing my burnout and taking steps to heal myself.
SAT: Got up, I had not slept well, and hydrated myself. I had three eggs and one slice of toast. I was still trying to amp my protein. Body was still sore so I opted not to do a morning work out.
I went to a friendís house to help paint her condo (she was having an all out painting party)
I was actually expecting a veggie platter and other semi good stuff (she had promised food)
I got there and instead ate a donut and 3 tiny pastries. Plus several helpings of Cheese and crackers (oh and olives). And three slices of Pizza when it was ordered later. And my parents took me out to dinner that night.
Yes, I spend a few hours painting, but really I do not think I burned nearly as many calories as I consumed.
I felt fat and lazy (but tired) when I got home so I made myself do my video requirement and about 20 minutes of cardio before bed.
NEGATIVES: No Food Discipline at all.
POSITIVES: Movement and a small amount of repentant workout (was trying to respect my muscles need for rest so did not was careful not to overdo that either)
SUNDAY: Slept okay, but still not enough. Another protein centric breakfast. Then my best friend and I went to a local Bridal Expo.
I want to be fair and announce in advance that I was well aware of and planning the calories that I would be consuming at this event.
Savory Catering samples and lots of cake. And Doubletree cookies. Some of it I consumed there and some I consumed later at home and at the College Hockey game I went to that afternoon. (I shared the cookies with My BF and his son, ate another cake sample)
I really SHUDDER to think of the calories.
After I got home from the game I got on the treadmill and did a really good sweaty burn.
Felt great. It had been several days since I had worked it like that!
Of course then I had curry dinner, a glass of red wine, and another piece of cake.
The GREAT NEWS is that I slept really well last night for the first time in like 10 days.
NEGATIVES: Planned indulgence turned into a slow all-day binge of sorts.
POSITIVES: Fantastic workout and fulfilling sleep
So this morning I really pissed myself off. One of the bakeries had given us each a gourmet cupcake in a box to take home.
You know the kind. Huge, three inches of frosting. Beautiful. Apparently filled with more frosting in the Middle. Mine was an Oreo cupcake.
I had it for breakfast. Or maybe half of it.
The frosting was too much. Half way into it I felt nauseated and gross and I admit I threw the rest away. (ok, first bite in I thought it to be way too sweet and didn't want it, it just took me several more bites to get rid of it)
Why was I pissed off? Because even though I had planned to save it for today, I really didn't want it. So why did I eat it? Because it was there.
Right now I would kill for a spinach salad. I am really craving veggies.
Of course I have none at work.
I wish I had found time to go to the Farmers Market this weekend.
I am down a half a pound from last Monday. I cannot help but wonder what that number would have been without the shameless Calorie Circus. However what is done is done.
Still working that January Jumpstart challenge.
I am really going to try harder to eat the RIGHT foods this week so that I do not end up crashing again.
Tonightís dinner is a lean pork stir Fry with Veggies, served over rice.
After the usual Monday after work work-out with JAHINTZY.