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Monday, January 21, 2013

MLK Day is one of those weird days that I have off while everyone else is at work. It seems I have fun-filled day of housework ahead of me... some holiday.

I feel pretty crummy this morning. Roomie's mom came in town for the weekend so we did it big, and I'm now suffering from a beer/enchilada/fun hangover. I'm sure I surpassed my Thanksgiving Day calorie intake yesterday! (But who knows since I didn't track) I definitely let things get out of control... started the day with cottage cheese, then had ham n' cheese grits, then buffalo chicken egg rolls, beer, okra oven fries, beer, more egg rolls and more beer, Mama's enchiladas (amaaaazing), beer, beer, beer.

From past blogs I can identify this behavior as a pattern. Whenever I get a scale surprise that I've lost when I expected to gain, I celebrate by giving myself the go-ahead to get crazy. What comes next is a week-long struggle to fight carb withdrawals and getting indecent with dessert items. So... I expect today to be rough.

I'm going to experiment. Maybe I'll be able to come up with an after-binge ritual that will spare me the week of hellish carb cravings and body image whiplash. Today I'll try a low-carb detox, and see how I feel. Maybe keep fruit to only a banana, but have unlimited veggies. No breads or rice today. And of course keep my sodium in check. I'll have to make a note to see when the crash hits and what it makes me crave.

My stomach feels like a deflated whoopie cushion, and when I press on my guts I can feel how raw they are. I thought about this feeling yesterday, knowing full well I was headed for gastrointestinal misery, but I told myself it was worth it..... Was it?

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SDLEE514 2/4/2013 1:03PM

    ha I do the same thing, when I lose I feel I can afford to celebrate...not a good cycle, but I feel ya!

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CATTUTT 1/25/2013 8:10PM

    It's amazing how easy it is to convince yourself it's worth it at the time. It's good that you've found the pattern, and are trying to break it. Sometimes identifying the wtf of the situation is the hardest part.

Hope you are feeling better!


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BIGPAWSUP 1/23/2013 12:59PM

    Been there done that! Hope you find something that works for you.

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LOLATURTLE 1/21/2013 11:59AM

    Sorry you're feeling crummy. emoticon

I like the experiment idea. I do that a lot more, too; I like being able to use the "slip ups" or "bad" days to figure out what to do next time. I hope you find a good post-celebration routine!

Also... HI!! I don't know what's up with my feed but your last couple of blogs have slipped by me! GRRR friend feed. I AM STILL HEEEEERE! emoticon

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ERIN1128 1/21/2013 11:05AM

    Yep, I think we've all done that! You want to celebrate and "let down" a bit when you realize you lost, and you end up undoing your hard work. A hard pattern to break, but necessary. You can do it!

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NELLJONES 1/21/2013 9:11AM

    This is exactly the scenario I know will happen if I binge. Or just overeat. I make sure I remember it well, keep it green as they say, and the wish to avoid this kind of self-flagellation is what I need to avoid. Which is why I avoid overeating. The aftermath is worse each time. Who needs it?

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