Sunday, January 20, 2013
The last few days have been very trying. Ronan has been acting out terribly. I know its partly because his routine has been so skewed and off kilter and some of it is because he's not sleeping well. These combined with an almost insatiable appitite (he's been eating more than I have the last few days) have culminated in some HUGE tantrums. Like, some one help me my mommy is tearing out my organs type screams, on the floor kicking, No I WON'T!. The whole nine. Since we've had to be going to my school to get both of our enrollments done and ready for Tuesday, its made for hard days and worn out nights. I've been binging a bit. Trying to get comfort from my food again. I know I'm doing it. I know I need to stop. I know those cookies are 90 cals a piece with 4.5g of fat and 7g of sugar but for the 30 seconds to a minute I feel better. I've not been tracking my food as much because I'm ashamed that I can't seem to control it. I keep saying tomorrow I'll do it, tomorrow I'll eat breakfast, tomorrow I'll ... do nothing. When school starts I'll have less unstructured time so I think that will help curb the eating a bit. I've got some good snacks I'll be preping on Monday for both of us. The first step is thinking. The second is doing. I'll be writing out my meal/snack ideas tonight and I'll post them tomorrow.
Hope your weekend is lovely.