Saturday, January 19, 2013
Woke up this morning not feeling all so hot. Probably something I ate yesterday, I'm pretty sure. Went and picked up our freggies from the Co-Op and came back home to get ready to go out in the ministry. By this time I was feeling a little worse but I went anyway, my service to Jehovah is extremely important to me. While out, I got a text from my aunt, my uncle who was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic and liver cancer, fell asleep in death this morning at 745am. He went down quickly which I think is a huge blessing. My aunt has been like my mother for the last couple of years, been with me through every step with my dad before he passed away last August. I held myself together until we were done with the ministry. On the way home though, all the feelings and emotions hit me like a ton of bricks, I never have really grieved for my dad. I still haven't, I kept myself in control when I got home. By this time, I was really feeling bad, wifey took the kids to grandmas for the night. I was suppose to go spent the evening with some of the brothers from the congregation, but then it hit like a mack truck and I lost everything I had put in my body. I also have a headache and am too afraid to try to put anything in my mouth. It's just me and my wittle Boo, and she is taking good care of me. I hope to feel better for meeting tomorrow, but I won't push it and get worse.
Have a good night!