In December, my Shelby (she calls me her other mother, so she must be my other daughter) dreamed that I could turn into a hedgehog whenever I wanted. The timing of this was interesting, as it was just prior to the passing of the woman I considered my other mother, Ripley.
So this past month, along with still working on the list from Rebcca (the most challenging..giving up control), I've been thinking about a hedgehog and how it applies to me and my journey.
First I read this on a site that tells about what totem animals mean.
"The hedgehog is also symbolic of fertility and being connected to the earth. It's belly is close to the Mother (earth, that is) and this close proximity is symbolic of its connection to earth and all that is fertile. The hedgehog's tendency to curl up in the fetal position is also a message of centering, and connecting with the source.
Further, central Asia and parts of Iran associated agricultural abundance, fertility and the gift of fire to the hedgehog. In these cultures it is considered a solar power animal, and is strongly connected to the energy and vitality of the sun. This may be further understood when we think of the hedgehog's splayed spikes look much like the spanning rays of the sun."
So whatever does this have to do with Spark People and why would I blog about it?
I've certainly needed to curl up and center my energy recently, so I appreciate that the dream indicated I could do that. Only I forgot that last week, and when someone doesn't do what one needs to do to center, someone like me EATS. So last week, when I was challenged to the max by many issues related to the loss of my friend and other mother, I ate.
If nothing else, it was a good lesson in how quickly and easily it is to revert to old patterns. It was also good to know that I'm less of an emotional eater than I used to be..I don't eat as much, I don't beat myself up about it. I just eat more than I want and also more sugar than I usually eat.
Yesterday, I did some energy work, got back to my own energy and am better. I'm writing this down so that I will remember what happened and what to do. I have a hedgehog picture on my facebook and on my computer to remind me.
Thanks for listening friends.