Saturday, January 19, 2013
I have decided to have a DO-OVER. Yep, me. I was standing there, folding clothes and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I have wanted to lose weight, done a few things to try and lose weight. BUT I have never put it on project status. NEVER.
I am a very intent and focused individual when something is important to me.
Both Pregnancies: I could have been a poster child for perfect behavior. Husband had Cancer: Project status: Hyper focused. The best doctors. The right treatment plan, the right foods, the right books, the message boards for advice.
Lump in my throat and thyroid surgery: Few across the country to Tulane University to have the latest and greatest surgery with the surgeon who not only perfected the technique but teaches it at John Hopkins. Yes, I did.
Weight... I phone it in and half ass it at best.
SO TODAY IS DAY 1. I think I have known all along what it would take and I wasn't ready for the commitment, the time, the fight, the just say no.
and yet, I had a real glimpse of a new lifestyle. I worked out in the morning and it carried me throughout the day. I was light on my feet, I was happy, and I also ate really well. I am no longer letting anyone stop me, not even the kids.
I realize dropping everything I need to do to follow them about, is making me into someone I don't want to be. I also realize they need to be a little more independent. I am not their maid, or their social secretary. They can figure it out. They are 16 and almost 11! HELLO...they are not babies that need mama to do everything for them. I am ashamed to say I actually deliver a latte and breakfast to my 16 year olds room every morning instead of working out with that time. She is in for a rude awakening, as she will have to figure out where the kitchen is.
deep breath here. I am worth it and DAY 1 starts now. Daily I will be figuring it out and reporting my new life. I am doing my countdown until goal weight.
Ready, Set Go, START... so I am hoping on my treadmill! :)