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Day 1? Really is it day one after years on spark? yes.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

I have decided to have a DO-OVER. Yep, me. I was standing there, folding clothes and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I have wanted to lose weight, done a few things to try and lose weight. BUT I have never put it on project status. NEVER.

I am a very intent and focused individual when something is important to me.

Both Pregnancies: I could have been a poster child for perfect behavior. Husband had Cancer: Project status: Hyper focused. The best doctors. The right treatment plan, the right foods, the right books, the message boards for advice.

Lump in my throat and thyroid surgery: Few across the country to Tulane University to have the latest and greatest surgery with the surgeon who not only perfected the technique but teaches it at John Hopkins. Yes, I did.

Weight... I phone it in and half ass it at best.

SO TODAY IS DAY 1. I think I have known all along what it would take and I wasn't ready for the commitment, the time, the fight, the just say no.

and yet, I had a real glimpse of a new lifestyle. I worked out in the morning and it carried me throughout the day. I was light on my feet, I was happy, and I also ate really well. I am no longer letting anyone stop me, not even the kids.

I realize dropping everything I need to do to follow them about, is making me into someone I don't want to be. I also realize they need to be a little more independent. I am not their maid, or their social secretary. They can figure it out. They are 16 and almost 11! HELLO...they are not babies that need mama to do everything for them. I am ashamed to say I actually deliver a latte and breakfast to my 16 year olds room every morning instead of working out with that time. She is in for a rude awakening, as she will have to figure out where the kitchen is.

deep breath here. I am worth it and DAY 1 starts now. Daily I will be figuring it out and reporting my new life. I am doing my countdown until goal weight.

Ready, Set Go, START... so I am hoping on my treadmill! :)
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  • SUZANNE65203
    I see myself so clearly in what you wrote. I cannot get down those last few pounds and stay there. I know that I have not really committed.
    1889 days ago
  • ELSCO55
    1889 days ago
    Good for you! You deserve to be priority. If you don't take care of you, you can't do all the things you do. You are so worth the effort and the battle. You can do this!
    1890 days ago
    Awesome, put yourself first, it is important so that you will be around for many, many years to come!

    You know that you are doing your 16yo a favor by putting yourself first, time to fend for herself before being out in the real world and not knowing how to boil water ( I seriously know people like this!!!)

    1890 days ago
    Good for you Jane, you are worth it! You can still be there for your children, simply after you take care of yourself.
    1890 days ago
    Good for you and good luck on DAY 1 and beyond. You can do it. I support you totally. My son is now MY "stay at home man". He is grown and since he is on disability, HE does the housework since I work a long hard job and he is at home. He loves it and frees me to relax when I come home stressed out. Kids are amazingly capable when given a chance and a little nudge by us. My KID is now a middle aged man but he is STILL MY KID.
    1890 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    emoticon Were there with you, Earl emoticon
    1890 days ago
    YES!! You ARE worth it!! Time to get a little selfish because you are very much worth it. Just remember that it's a process - as long as you are taking steps in the right direction you will succeed! emoticon
    1890 days ago
    GOOD FOR YOU! I'm right there with you! emoticon emoticon
    1890 days ago
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