Saturday, January 19, 2013
So do you ever look at pictures
and then look at yourself in the mirror
and say - that doesn't look like me? I used to look and pictures and think man I need to do something. Lately I've been looking at them saying, whos that pretty girl. Yea self esteem - it has nothing to do with weight, it has to do with what is on the inside and loving who you are. Its taken a long time but I do love the person that is now on the inside as much as the one on the outside. Now I just need to convince myself that I am that girl. I am worthy. I am strong and not take myself out of the game before I get rejected.
Last night was a lot of fun and I almost didn't go! Went to a Parrothead
meeting, where rum ice cream
was on the menu (free of course). Then out to a local bar for dancing
- and our group loves to dance - oh and to drink
.. I don't drink a lot, with the pups at home someone has to be responsible. So I enjoy watching and participating. The was called See Alice, I'm sure that has connotations beyond my reasonings.
Dinner - besides the ice cream (no more than 1 cup), I had a hot dog with lettuce, tomatoes, onions, pickles and cheese and 2 beers(no fries). It was a night to celebrate and I figure I worked off a little bit dancing.