Saturday, January 19, 2013
Well, here are the good things:
1. I am eating well. I cooked, and I haven't had anything fast foodie on the way home at night. This weekend, I will cook pork chops and potatoes and chicken with mushrooms to have on hand for meals, and maybe shop some for a few more meals. The emeals thing is GREAT, but I am still not energetic enough to deal with cooking when I get home, so healthy leftovers it is.
2. I am getting better about keeping track of those things which I need to get finished and actually completing them.
3. I emailed my homeroom families last night with all the missing work from LifeSkills...almost 15 kids were missing more than one assignment. Now to do math, language arts, science and history.
4. I am keeping up on "grading." I don't grade EVERYTHING, mind you, but for each lesson I take a temperature reading of how the kids are doing--most of what we do in class is practice, so it's not accurate or useful to use that as part of their grade unless it shows that they were able to do something well after a lesson if they bomb that part of the tests...
5. I am figuring out our grading program well..until today when it upgrades. Hopefully things will not be much different.
6. I am saying "no." when people ask me for things or to do things and (trying) to feel ok with it. I haven't explained myself to anyone all week, just said, "No, I'm sorry I can't...why don't you ask..." I have also said "no" to engaging the life suckers--those people who rant and rave about everything and suck the life (and time) out of you. Last night, I continued working just as diligently as I was before Erin arrived in my classroom...she kept talking..and talking...and talking, and when I wasn't engaging enough, she went home. I only lost about 10 minutes instead of an hour.
7. I am (acting like) I'm confident in my own knowledge/abilities professionally and standing UP for our profession so that others in it might follow suit. I might be coming off as bitchy, but if they don't want to take their job seriously, then perhaps they need to find another one (tho I'm not suggesting it out loud yet.)
8. I have taken time for me at night to vegetate and decompress and only felt moderately guilty about it instead of full on guilt tripped.
9. One scale or the other has shown a loss of poundage throughout the week. Yesterday, the digital one still told me I weigh somewhere between 191 and 208, depending on where it was on the floor (and sometimes that didn't matter.) but the other shows steady around the lower 180s, so we'll go with that.
The not so fabulous:
1. Last night, I caved. Baked Lays, Chocolate, and Dr. Pepper. And not in moderation.
2. I haven't run. I haven't exercised. I haven't lifted a weight....unless you count my backpack....that I lift often.
3. I've let the snarky comments of others said in passing about me as a professional get to me a little....and I've internalized it so I don't vent it inappropriately. I did discuss it a little with others in my lead team, so that they might offer suggestions on how I can deal with it. Essentially, while I'm a member of our "lead team," my own teammates see me as our director's "secretary" and not any sort of real "lead," so when I let them know of something that needs to be done, discussed, or taken care of, they blow it off. One even went so far as to go to the director to get a sense of what my "role" is because she couldn't fathom that as a teacher with less experience than her, I would be asked to be in a leadership role.
So that's my week. Today I am going to run a while, get caught up on Downton Abbey while I do it, and then go get my hair done. And perhaps I will take a nap.