Saturday, January 19, 2013
I've been having some thoughts about myself and my relationship with God, and how I talk to myself.
The first thought was that I am too hard on myself when I make a mistake. I realized I should learn to see myself the way God sees me.
At work, I am a retail manager and am very good at my job. Its because I can walk the sales floor and see all the details--the good things and the "opportunities". I can make lists of notes for my coworkers to fix all the things I see. Many times over the last 15 years, I longed for coworkers who could see through "Carolyn's eyes" and fix stuff without me having to point it out.
So I can take this idea a step further, knowing that God loves me and wants me to be successful in life, the same way I want my coworkers to be successful at work. I need to look at myself in a loving and forgiving way, with a larger perspective. When I put this into practice, I feel differently about myself. I love myself more. I feel less guilt about choices I make, and motivated to making different choices the next time.
I plan to keep reminding my brain to see myself through God's eyes. It will make me a better person, and keep me from turning to food to deal with my emotions. I'm not saying I'm perfect at it, life is all about striving for perfection the best you can each day.
There was something else I wanted to record here, but its late and I can't remember what it is. I'll leave it for tomorrow!