Saturday, January 19, 2013
So I'm back! I had the baby last September. I still can't believe I have 3 kids now! It's a lot of work! When I was pregnant I went back up to 202 lbs. Yeah, it's a lot of weight gain from my lowest weight at 157 and I was a little depressed about that. Although I was even heavier than that when I first began this journey, I felt like I had to start all over gain. Looking at how much weight I have to lose again to get to 157 is very intimidating. I know I have it in me to do it but still, I wish I could just blink and all my pregnancy weight will be gone. I'm also still breast feeding so I can't exactly do as I did before. There's a lot of tweaks here and there and I have to be careful. I am pro breastfeeding so when I see that my milk is not meeting my baby's demands, I kind of get sad because I want to start losing weight now but at the same time I feel like I'm depriving my baby. However, coworkers decided to start another Biggest Loser now and I really needed to kick start my motivation to start being healthy again and lose weight. We have just finished one week and so far I have lost about 5 lbs. It's a great number I think but I'm drying up even though I hydrate well, take my lactation supplements, and eat oatmeal everyday. I really wanted to exclusively breastfeed but if I wanted to do this now, there's no way that's gonna happen. Although I'm really torn about it, I guess I'm just going to eventually supplement with formula :( . I just wish I didn't feel so selfish but I am happy that I regained my self control so far and my motivation. One thing I was worried about too was running. I thought I had to relearn to like it but it turns out, I still know how to run! Yay for that! However, I still prefer to run outdoors. It just makes time go by faster, I can set my own pace, feel the breeze on my face, and people-watch. I moved to a less desirable neighborhood so that's not always possible especially since it's already dark out after work. So for now, I have to stick with the treadmill at the gym until daylight savings time comes around again. Hopefully, I can just continue my journey to my goal from way back and no more surprises. It would be nice to win the competition but at the end of it all, I just really want to get back to where I was before I got pregnant and keep going from there. Wish me luck!
Here are pictures of me and the little one:
I love him