Next times the charm...
Friday, January 18, 2013
Or at least I'm hoping it will be. Today was a series of good and happy events...or at least everything went well that didn't involve food.
Hubby's ventilator was delivered this afternoon and he is all hooked up and snoozing away SAFELY! I couldn't be happier about that. The last night he laid down to sleep was Christmas Eve and it was a close call at losing him so, he's been upright in a recliner at all times for all this time. It's actually pretty reasonable he's been a complete crab apple for a while, I couldn't imagine trying to sleep sitting upright for 3 weeks or so.
I started my cycle today. I called the doctor's office to cancel the appointment. He said I must have ovulated on the meds or I wouldn't have gotten a monthly. But, I should start them on Day 2 instead of 3 to help prevent a delay like this month. I agree with help prevent the delay...I got all hopeful and now I'm ready to pout. I feel like we have better odds this go around anyhow. This time around hubby isn't on antibiotics for pneumonia and he'll be well rested which means he won't be so grouchy and will cope better with the "Clomid rage".
Since that put me in a chocolate craving and slightly sour mood I bought a small container of ice cream and mindlessly set to work on. I really didn't intend of having so much but, it was just so awesome and yummy at the time. Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Therapy is not therapeutic I feel like I need counseling just to undo the damage it did because after all that...I honestly don't feel guilty. That might be a dangerous frame of mind because it could easily turn into a shameless binge. As unhealthy as it is I like my food guilt it keeps me in-check.
I had 3 oz of grilled chicken with 2 cups of salad mix for dinner and actually measured my dressing to the 2 tbsp serving size but, I mixed a little extra vinegar into it to stretch it out some. So, I felt a little more in control. I hit the bike for about 15 minutes holding it at 17 mph the whole time, stretched, and accomplished a lot of cleaning. I am slowly learning to turn my days around instead of just calling them shot and completely letting loose.
Anyhow, I've got to force myself to get some sleep because tomorrow if all goes as planned we're spending the day with family (Mom and her husband) and I know I could use the time away from home. Sometimes it's so nice just to hang out at someone else's house because I know I get awfully sick of looking at mine all the time.