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Surgery consult on Monday.... fingers crossed

Friday, January 18, 2013

I have an appointment to consult a plastic surgeon on Monday morning. I'm nervous. Beyond nervous... I'm kind of a wreck. Perhaps I'm putting too much weight on this one man's opinion. But I feel like I have a lot riding on it.

You can not lose 183# and NOT have excess skin. (If you do.... wow, you have some FANTASTIC genes!) Throw in that during the time it took to lose that weight, I aged 10 years, had a baby, 2 miscarriages, and 7 abdominal surgeries. Yeah.... my body is showing some wear and tear.

In some ways I've been very fortunate. I have very little excess skin on my face.... and the waddle I am starting to have under my chin *may* have something to do with my age rather than weight loss. But as I've lost, I have "melted".... and most of it has settled in an apron of skin and fat hanging from my belly. And it has become excruciating.

I have been struggling with skin infections in skin folds for years... it has only gotten worse the last few months. My measurements on my entire body are DECREASING, but the measurement around my abdomen is INCREASING.... as I lose, more skin in hanging there. I have awful, chronic back pain. There are times that I am on the elliptical and feel as though my lower back will rupture from the pain.

I feel as though my options are:
1) revert to a sedentary lifestyle to reduce the pain (NOT a valid option for me. I've worked too hard and come to far to give up!)

2) Continually see a physician for skin creams, antibiotics, and narcotic pain pills (using narcotics while working in my profession is a pretty stupid idea... I rely on my instincts and being aware to keep me safe)

or 3) Remove the approximately 20# of weight hanging from my stomach, recover, and continue my weight loss journey.

I am not concerned about the excess skin on/under my arms. The damage done to my breasts can be camouflaged by a good bra. The hanging skin from my legs can be covered by cute jeans. But pain? I can't hide that with pretty fabric.

This procedure is often seen as cosmetic, and denied by insurance companies. I am extremely worried about this. What my insurance company may not understand is this:
1) I already have a 14" scar running the length of my abdomen
2) I already had to have my belly button surgically removed during a surgery (I plan to get a cute tattoo where it SHOULD be at some point, just because I think that would be hysterically funny)
and 3) a good looking tummy would be wasted with the rest of me sagging.

This isn't about looks. This is about pain. And reaching my goals. And being healthy, happy, active, and living with JOY rather than pain.

So.... wish me luck and say a prayer. I'd really appreciate it.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CYNTSATIONAL 1/22/2013 9:15AM

    Hope all went well! Your journey is an inspiration to me. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Keep on SPARKing!
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IMAUNIONGIRL 1/21/2013 10:29AM

  You are truly an inspiration. I hope the doc appointment went well

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SCCUDDLERS 1/21/2013 10:09AM

    Good luck! It never occurred to me that my increase in back pain after loosing 120+ lbs might be from the excess skin on my abdomen. I was baffled my why my back would hurt more when weight loss should make it hurt less. Thanks for flipping that switch for me. Keep us posted on how your visit goes.

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SONGBIRDPAULA 1/21/2013 7:24AM

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Good luck at the doctor's today. Please keep us posted. I would dearly love to have my apron removed.....the flapping noise when I walk is very embarrassing!

Have a blessed day and wonderful journey to the new you!

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MILANMOM1969 1/20/2013 10:14PM

    I willl be praying that your appointment goes well tomorrow. Take carea and let us know how it goes.


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COLEMAN500 1/20/2013 7:19PM

    Wow! I wish you all the luck in world and I think of you in my prayers for you are an inspiration . emoticon

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HEALTHY-SPARK 1/20/2013 2:29PM

    I hope your consultation works out and that your insurance company will pay for it. Tough to try and fix one problem (being overweight) only to end up having chronic issues from excess skin after trying to fix the first problem. Good luck! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!

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CATMAGNET 1/20/2013 2:08PM

    I definitely understand. I have some sagging skin on my abdomen as well after losing 130+ pounds, but not enough to cause back pain. If the excess weight of the skin is causing pain, by all means, do it!

Looking forward to hearing what the surgeon has to say. Fingers crossed! :)

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FIRECOM 1/20/2013 1:57PM

    Wow, this blog surly resonated with me. I have lost a total of 172 lb and I have that same albatross around my midsection that you have. I am going to see if I can get this classified as a necessary health issue, otherwise, there is no way I could afford the surgery.

Wishing you well.

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SCOUTMOM715 1/20/2013 9:14AM

    Thinking about you and wishing you the best! Take Care!!

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CINBURR9 1/20/2013 5:34AM

    I'll be rooting for you!! - I had a panni done 10 years ago after losing 200# and it was THE best decision I did. Very painful? yes, but the end result was amazing - and I'm not talking cosmetically - that's a given! I had a wonderful surgeon, who did many , many surgeries on the former morbidly obese so I was VERY confident he could help me. He removed 17 pounds of fat and skin from hip to hip. I can actually bend over with ease to pick things up off the floor and am not having to constantly re-shift my skin when sitting! My surgery was covered by insurance since it was deemed medically necessary - I had rashes, etc. Hope all goes well for you and even though it will be painful, the end result will be worth it - I guarantee it!

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LADYBUGOF14 1/20/2013 2:13AM

  I will be pray for you. emoticon

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CARRAND 1/19/2013 7:49PM

    Good luck! I hope your insurance company will pay for this. I think they might. It's not just vanity, it's a health issue.

You are amazing.

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FAT2GAINHEALTH 1/19/2013 3:22PM

I have the same issues and have lost about 150 and still need to lose 150 more . I have constant yeast infections and sweaty odor from my skin flap but never have seen a dr. about it. waiting to lose the rest first. but I have so much skin flap it is hard to bath under it including you know where. good luck let me know how it goes.
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SUECHRIS50 1/19/2013 2:38PM

    Girl you are just so strong!!I feel you on the apron thingy...It also stinks from bacteria.
Almost200 pounds lost???Priceless!!im so proud of you!! emoticon

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JILLIEWILLIE1 1/19/2013 2:11PM

    I hope all goes well. I am sure it is difficult to face another surgery. Maybe with this one he can get ride on the old scars as well. Pain free and probably a couple of sizes smaller. I see that same apron effect developing on me. I haven't had any issues yet. But I am still 60+ pounds away from my goal. emoticon

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LIVINGFREE19 1/19/2013 2:03PM

    You definitely need the surgery to get rid of the excess skin. Wow, you have lost sooooo much weight! It will be great for you when you can have the excess skin taken off!


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DONNA5281 1/19/2013 10:38AM

  I am thinking about you.
I hope everything goes well for you.
I will add you to my prayer list.


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BODDHISATTVA123 1/19/2013 10:18AM

    Am thinking about you Lynn... hang in there emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/19/2013 9:10AM

    I wish you all the best. I'm already contemplating whether not surgery will be an option for me.

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ADARKARA 1/19/2013 8:00AM

    I really hope it works out for you, it sounds really painful. I love the tattoo idea!

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SEEINGCLEARLY53 1/19/2013 1:58AM

    I wish you much luck! emoticon

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123ELAINE456 1/18/2013 11:10PM

  Your Doctor Appointment will go well Monday. Relax and You will be fine. Have a Super Good Day. Enjoy the Weekend. God Bless You and Family. Take Care. Stay Warm and Safe Too.

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CAGEDBIRDSONG 1/18/2013 11:02PM

    Thank you for your honesty and openness. I hope everything works out. I just don't "get" insurance decision-making.

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WILLEYDEBORAH 1/18/2013 10:42PM

    I commend you on your success. I will be sure to say a prayer that everything works out for you. Hopefully one day I can lose that kind of weight too. You really are and inspiration. I would like to add you to my friends list.


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