Friday, January 18, 2013
Judgment/Judgement. It's a word that irritates me. Not only for what it means, but in my household it can be spelled two ways. Judgment & Judgement. Depending on where you live, either spelling is acceptable. Silly thing I noticed, but anyhoo...
We are judged whether we want to be or not, that's just a part of life. We can't control what others think of us. In fact, I've been told it's none of my business what someone else thinks of me. It's their business, so stay out of it. People are going to think what they are going to think. They will make their own judgments and have the right to do it, too. I like the freedom of having that choice...but what happens when the negative judgment is pointed straight at you.
I don't do well with this. In fact, it's something that brings me to a very low point. It's definitely something I need work on, because of the place it takes me in my mind. I know I can't help what another thinks, but allowing it to bother me as much I do I need help with.
As I think back over this issue, it most definitely was first noticeable when I first joined a gym. I had the hardest time walking onto that gym floor to do a workout. I know this is a big thing for a lot of people, being so concerned of what others are thinking they look like, or how they are looking while working out. I was able to get past that over the years and eventually began walking the floor like I owned it ;) Now I am dealing with it in my personal life and finding it tough to own it...and that gets me annoyed.
I'm a big believer in learning lessons. This one keeps popping up, so I know I have not yet learned what I'm supposed to learn from it. I've been told I overthink things at times, and maybe I'm doing the same here...but I'm willing to listen to advice, opinions or...yes, judgments.