Tonight I had a Volleyball meeting and boy I was excited about it starting. I have my team and our first game is Friday!! This is the one thing that I am so excited about during winter. Tonight was a good and bad night.

I just found out that my soon to be ex husband is coaching a team this year. There is a rule that you have to live in the township to play. He does not live in the township. He has a residence that I live in until our divorce is final. I am not happy about this because I never enjoyed playing with him. Now he is invading my space that he left me for other women. Now my concern is that I will possibly see him with his new woman and I really cannot handle that.

I am not happy about this and decided I will not play the night that we have a game against his team. I will not put myself through that torture.

Some of you may feel to comment and say to be the bigger person and to play his team. I know that when I joined the Volleyball League we were married. I originally got us to join. Once we started playing he started flirting with all the women on our team. When ever I made a mistake he would tell me what I did wrong and yet when another teammate made the same mistake they just laughed. They would make the same mistakes as me but no one said anything to them. I put up with that for about 2 years before he left me.

Since he left me he hasn't played volleyball until this year. I am not a great player and I don't play this to become a great player. I play for fun and I know I won't enjoy it when I play his team. I am still going to play but I am not going to the one game when we play his team. I figure that day I can work extra hard on something else. I also became the coach of a team and really enjoy the importance of being the coach. I finally felt like I was getting out of my shell and becoming my own person. Now I feel that he is invading my space.

This has also put a fire in me to exercise more, lift weights more and to just start looking for another sport to play that is for fun.

Thanks for reading my blog and letting me vent.

I am Thankful for:

1. My friend Amy
2. My Spark Friends
3. Eating Healthy