Friday, January 18, 2013
I find it very hard to deal with physical pain and yet focus on good diet and health initiatives. I have migraines, bursitis in my hips, and dental issues that have just resulted in root canal - swollen face, painful teeth - again. But thank goodness, no life-threatening medical issues. Just discomfort.
I count my blessings. I do exercises for my bursitis, and the hips do actually feel a little better. Weight loss would help a lot more, but it's something. The migraines still have me stumped, but they average once or twice a week now. When they hit, they hurt a lot, but sleep helps. I have to admit, I am getting my rest. There was an infection in my jaw from a blown root canal, so I went to the dentist. It turns out, the root canals I had last Wednesday do hurt right now. Hence, 3 glasses of wine and counting - and a pain pill. Very unusual for me, a typical "cheap date" falling asleep after one glass of wine. Wine is one of my blessings today. The other is my husband, who agreed to take my 22 year old autistic son bowling without me tonight, so I can chill out here and try to not feel too awful.
Patience. I have a lot of good things going for me. I am grateful, and I long to be patient. Tomorrow I will log onto Sparkpeople again. I will track my food. I will try to exercise a little. And I will be patient with myself. It's OK that I haven't had miraculous results on Sparkpeople, even when I start to think of this as proof that I am a failure. I realize that am just on my own timetable, taking care of what I need to, and taking small steps toward a healthier life.
Patience. It gives me room to fail and get up again, deal with my small challenges, and still try for something better.