Friday, January 18, 2013
so i've been wishy washy and wallowing in my twisted inner conflict. due to the nature of what triggered my wallowing, i've been seeking guidance from both my pastor and a counselor.
this week was trying at best and came to a head thursday. it triggered me sending both pastor and counselor an e-mail.
today, i chatted w/ my counselor. we're not delving too far into what's wrong with me (that's coming i'm sure) but we did sort of tackle one issue that she felt i could get a hold of. she gave me a challenge.
no sweets until my birthday on the 31st.
you'd think this wouldn't be difficult but in the past 2 weeks i've probably eaten 3 medium bags of m&m's. and that doesn't even count the candy from coworkers and other not so good snacks. i reverted to eating my emotions/problems.
so, from tomorrow until my birthday, i'm on a sweets fast. it's going to be hard. and since she presented it as a challenge, the athlete in me can't help but get excited. but i'm also scared that i'm going to fail [it's really gotten that bad]. surely i can do this. it's only 12 days.