Friday, January 18, 2013
I came across a notebook today, while getting on with this never-ending decluttering.
Now, I don't stop when decluttering, though I sometimes slow down as I look through the stuff to decide whether to keep or to toss. The timer is set, and I usually manage to ignore distractions so I don't get side-tracked (thank you, Fly Lady).
Today, I came to a full stop.
The notebook was a diary of a weight-loss journey in 1986.
A work colleague had been told by her doctor that she MUST lose weight so she could have a particular operation. She asked folk if anyone wanted to join in. I was the onlyy volunteer! The timing was mid-April through mid-December 1986.
I had already started a weight-loss programme of some sort in January 1986 - this notebook gives me weights and measurements, as well as my daily intake (food and calories) for the first fortnight of 1986.
And now, to name and shame myself -
6 Jan 1986 - 14st 4lb (200 lbs)
13 Jan 1986 - 13st 11lb (193 lbs)
13 Mar 1986 - 13st 2lb (184 lbs)
8 Dec 1987 - 11st 10lb (164 lbs)
2010- - - - - - - 18st 10lb (262 lbs)
Today - - - - - 18st 5lb (257 lbs)
What has happened to me in that time?
Son #1 - born 1 May 1988.
Son #2 - born 8 October 1990.
By which time I was already aged 37. And, as many of us know, weight loss gets much more difficult. What a comforting thought!
There was another weigh-in for my husband in March 2004 that I came across - but my sheet for the same period had no weight reported, just 2 goes on the elliptical.
I'll not beat myself up about the lack of anything - my Mum was in her last few months from cancer and I obviously had other things on my mind. I was still trying to work in paid employment as well as look after my Mum whenever possible. So, despite what my brother told me in one phone call, that I was responsible if my Mum died because I was still going out to work. Despite the fact that I was discussing with my husband that I should leave work and look after my Mum (though my brother didn't know about that). Despite the fact that my then manager suddenly resigned (knowing my circumstances fully).
Yes - many other folk have lived through similar situations.
And, no, it's definitely not easy to overcome circumstances.
But now i know - there is so much support here at SparkPeople for everyone, that I have now managed some weight loss after the horrendous weight gain.
I was up at 262 lbs for a while, a couple of years ago.
I am currently "back up again" at 256 lbs.
I don't mind the yoyo that I have found over the past few years, because it has been several pounds off then a few back on - and each time, the total is lower than before. And, over time, the way is downwards.
I just want to keep that downward trend going...... ..... .....