Friday, January 18, 2013
First, I would like to say, that this is literally one of the most supportive communities that I have ever come across. It was so interesting to hear from so many people and I am truly blessed to be around such a positive and helpful group.
On Wednesday, after my first visit with a nutritionist, I posted and began thinking about the answer to these questions:
Imagine in your perfect world what your life would be like in 5 years. What would that look like? What would you look like? How would you eat? What would your habits be? Be honest with yourself.
To me, this is one of the most profound questions that I have ever been asked. I find myself at a juncture in my life- I graduate from college this year, I have decided to put my health first, and I am in a wonderful and happy relationship. All those are GREAT things but they also mean that in a few months as I enter "adult" life there are going to be some major changes! Even though I know I have the skills that I need- I am still scared. Will I find a good job? Can I keep up my healthy habits? Where will I live? Can my relationship thrive post-college? So on some level I find it REALLY hard to picture what my life will be like because there are so many unanswered questions.
I am not, nor can I ever be, in control of all that is going to happen in these coming months. This is extremely hard for me to accept considering what a planner I am!!! But what I can control is how i handle these upcoming events and my feelings towards them. Whenever I am in "crisis-mode" and stressed out about the uncertaintly of the future I remember the words of John F. Kennedy-
"When written in Chinese the word crisis is composed of two characters. One represents danger, and the other represents opportunity"
So while there are dangers, exhibited by my stress over a job and a future that I look forward to- and the possibility that i can fail.... I choose to instead see this as a HUGE opportunity to put my entire all into succeeding in both my life and health goals.
So to answer her question without all the panic-
In five years I want to be in a happy and loving place- dealing with my anxiety and depression in healthful ways. I hope I have a job that allows me to use my skills and a husband or partner that I love. I hope that I have reached my goal weight and find peace with food. By that I mean, I do not deny myself but also no longer feel the need to overeat. I hope that I have no concept of "bad food" but that I also fuel my body with what it actually needs (moderation). I hope that I am no longer emotionally exhausted by my relationship with food and instead am strengthened by it. I hope that it comes more naturally and instead of counting calories I can put trust in my body to make the right decisions....something that my body has no practice with at all. My body will be healthy and strong because I will be running half marathons with my significant other. I will find stress relief in my connection to my community (sparkpeople!) and exercise.
These are my wishes, my hopes, my dreams... and one day, my reality. I would love to hear about your "crises' that allow you the perfect opportunity to ACT.
Wish me luck- I am heading to the beach for the weekend (COLD!) for a family reunion! This will be my first real "test" of some of my skills- there will be plenty of food there that is for sure. With such a supportive community, though, I plan on just checking up on all of you instead of going to the kitchen to graze! Let me know if you have other helpful hints!