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Letter to my future self.


Friday, January 18, 2013

As part of this weekís challenge for my Sunny Gals team I am supposed to write a letter to my future self.

Dear future Linda:

I am so proud of how far youíve come! Youíre an amazing woman, who has surmounted so many obstacles to try to live life to the fullest.
You grew up in a home filled with insecurities. Your mom was very insecure and passed that on to you. You were also a very overweight child since about first grade, and struggled with all the pressures and mean things that kids do to others who are not the norm. You got married to a man you fell in love with, just because he seemed to love you. You hadnít had that from a guy before. He turned out to have a lot of problems and after 5 kids and 16 years of marriage you picked yourself up and went to college and started out on your own again. Still battling the same weight issues and a lot of the insecurities. But you started to change, little by little. You started to find out who you were. You learned that just because your mom was afraid of trying new things or going anywhere by herself, or lived in general fear all the time, you didnít have to do the same anymore. You learned you could succeed in college with 5 young kids. You learned you could raise them by yourself. You started to learn how strong you were.
As the years passed, you continued to grow and know yourself as a person more and more with each passing year. But the weight struggles and some insecurities continued. You did a lot of caregiving to your mom for a number of years before she passed away, even though it was very difficult. You made her last years better. But through all those years of taking care of others and school and work you didnít learn to really take care of yourself. Then, in the summer of 2009, a couple of months after your mom passed away, something started to change and grow in a new direction. Kids were grown and you werenít having to be a caregiver anymore. You finally started to concentrate on yourself, little by little. You started to exercise just a little bit, and you started to eat a little better, and you started to lose weight. You had done this for brief periods before but it never lasted. But this time you kept moving forward. Then in November 2009 you found Sparkpeople and amazing support and resources. Youíve lost weight, and kept the majority off, for a few years. Longer than any other time in your life. Youíve consistently worked on exercising in various ways. Youíve had your ups and downs. You still didnít quite reach your goal weight but you kept working on it. In your mid 50ís you started running and for the first time in your life you felt like an athlete. You did a lot of other things you never thought youíd do.
And now, future Linda, itís been a number of years and youíve come even further. Youíve continued to grow and change as a person. Youíve learned that we should never stop growing, for if we do we become stagnant and die. Youíve pushed through more challenges over the years. As you move forward into the ages that people consider ďsenior citizensĒ you realize that you donít have to grow old according to the calendar. You can strive for new things. Maybe by the time you reach 65 youíll run your first half marathon or marathon. Maybe youíll get to try kayaking as youíve wanted to do. Youíll be hiking further and further and doing backpacking trips. Youíll continue to experience life in a whole different way than in your 20ís or 30ís or 40ís. Youíll continue to reach for the stars and find new worlds to explore! Things you never thought possible before will open up to you. And youíve learned to have true peace with yourself and to celebrate the good and the bad both in your life because they bring growth and continue to help you to go achieve things you never dreamed of.
Future self, Iím so proud of you for the life youíve learned to live and for being the person you are.
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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 1/20/2013 6:25PM

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FLORNH 1/19/2013 9:56AM

    Awesome blog! Congrats on writing the letter to your future self and for sharing it with us!

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 1/19/2013 9:41AM

    I've known for a long time how amazing you are and I'm very glad others are learning your story - I feel very honored to call you my friend and "sister" - thank you for inspiring me in so many ways!!! Hope to see you soon!

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RYDERB 1/19/2013 9:28AM

    Wow! Thanks for sharing your letter Linda! You're amazing and you've left me inspired.
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DESERTDREAMERS 1/19/2013 7:08AM

    You have learned to love yourself, and that's the best thing there is! emoticon

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MICKEYH 1/19/2013 12:00AM

    Thank you for sharing your letter. You went thru a lot in your life but you've made it. And are doing great. Congrats for all your past great effort to you and your family.
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PORTIAWILLIS 1/18/2013 8:54PM

    You go girl. I have walked 2 1/2 marathons. The first was 4 years ago and the last 2 years ago. That one almost got the best of me. But the sense of accomplishment I got doing them in my 50's was wonderful. I have been the short fat girl all my life and never played any kind of sports and running was a joke but I did it and I am training for my next one. I will be 58 in July and would love to get it done before than. I just had a total knee replacement last year so just have to see if I can do it again. If you would like company WALKING one just let me know when and where and I will try to make it. Wonderful letter and you have so much to be proud of.

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RACEWELLWON 1/18/2013 7:05PM

    Wonderful letter Linda , it has been mentioned to me before that when you start running later in life and enter marathons you have a better chance of winning in your age group - as your age group dwindles - LOL No kidding someone actually told me that at the beginning of a 5k - Hmmm - I will do a half Marathon with you - you have over come so many trying situations and have built your life from scratch with five kids you deserve a Medal !!! You Rock - C you in the Winner Circle :) emoticon emoticon emoticon

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L1ZB3TH354 1/18/2013 6:39PM

    You are amazing! I hope you are backpacking and kayaking at age 65! emoticon

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SGTSUNNY 1/18/2013 6:17PM

    You are amazing! Love that you do not let anything hold you back.

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DAISYBELL6 1/18/2013 4:33PM

    You go girl!

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RORYLYONS 1/18/2013 4:26PM

    What an inspiration you are.. emoticon emoticon

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REGILIEH 1/18/2013 3:44PM

    And you certainly should be proud of yourself!!! How inspiring you are!!! And after everything you have a fabulous attitude, but of course you should have as you are such a fabulous person!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DALI3519 1/18/2013 3:32PM

    Wow Linda! You are amazing now and in the future! I hope I'll be a part of it Sunny sister!

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STRINGI719 1/18/2013 2:45PM

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I've said it before, and I'll say it again - it's such an honor to know you and I feel so blessed to call you my friend, Linda!

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NATPLUMMER 1/18/2013 2:16PM

    You have come very far. I am proud of you.

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