Friday, January 18, 2013
I don't know why it is that I keep "starting over" and getting derailed. I think partly it is because I have allowed my families needs and desires trump my own and partly because I really do not like to diet or exercise. I like the results I get once I am getting results...but do not really like it much. And then, when I feel like I am working hard at it and see NO results...it is all too easy to just say, "whatever, forget it! what is the point?" But to give up is not an option any more. After exercising regularly for a few weeks, I had a doctors appointment this morning. I was kinda excited thinking I surely have lost a couple pounds. But, alas...no. I have gained 4 pounds since my last doctor appointment 6 months ago. I am currently at my all-time highest weight. I am not happy with myself. I have chosen in the past 2 years to not weigh myself because in the past I have gotten obsessed with what my scale says. But, now I am thinking that I need to weigh in at least 1 time a week so I don't go another 6 months not knowing if I am having any success.
So, I am back to logging all my food, and exercise. I just ordered what I hope will be a fun tool to help me stay motivated , a Nike Fuel Band and look forward to kicking my butt into submission. Wish me luck as I try to break through this never-ending cycle!