Friday, January 18, 2013
I was pretty happy to see 172 on my scale. Thatís 3 pounds in 2 weeks, which is awesome.
Iím pretty much back to where I was back in August. I just need to step up my ST and get more muscle.
I killed it last night and burned 500 calories, which well is awesome.
Iím loving watching Greyís Anatomy on neflix while I work out, itís pretty damn awesome.
For the past 3 years now I have felt like my body was my enemy.
My body has been on the defense for months, like itís been working against me ever since I had my son.
Yeah I went through periods in my life where I was heavy, but when I focused I lost a lot of weight and it stayed off for a long time. I was strong and fit and I did it with hard work.
I can live with hard work.
I can work hard for the rest of my life with positive results.
What I canít do is working hard and getting NO WHERE.
For the past 3 years I worked out so often and ate healthy, I did ST built muscle yes but I wasnít losing weight and I got stuck for a while and then slowly gained. Then there were times I just gave up and started all over again (counter productive)
My body just rebelled and fought the whole way.
Having this thyroid issue is a pain and my body definitely took a beating.
Iím glad that my doctor upped my dose recently and I feel even better.
My energy level rules, Iím happier, no more spotting, migraines, my hair is growing crazy (perfect for lots of curls for the wedding) and my body is actually responding to exercise and healthy eating.
There were times that I would wake up in the morning on the weekend and I would want to get up out of bed, but I couldnít. Sometimes it was because my body hurt so much, other times I just felt so damn sad, and other times I just felt so exhausted and I just wanted to sleep the day away.
I donít feel like that anymore.
I thought I would always feel that way too, and that made me more sad. My doctor told me before that sometimes we get so used to feeling bad/sick that we donít even realize that we are sick.
My thyroid condition started creeping up on me again in August and I didnít even see it, because itís so gradual and slow.
Having this condition isnít the worst thing in the world though, I just have to work harder to lose weight and I have to be more vigilant and pay attention to what my body is telling me. Oh and I have to see my doctor when I think something is up, thatís tough for me since hospitals arenít my fav place to be.
I realized though my body isnít against me, it just needs extra attention and I will make myself better with this hard work.
My body isnít perfect but itís mine, so I have to take care of it and have some fun along the way.