Friday, January 18, 2013
What have I done?
I guess this is what I deserve. I can blame it on surgery, on travel, on the wind that made this a terribly unflattering photo... but the reality is that I have not been paying attention to what I eat. I have been eating too much. And now I look like this.
My darling husband deserves better.
I deserve better!
Perhaps I just had to get to this place before it was serious enough for me to take action. Perhaps I was testing myself, to see how much I could "get away with." Unfortunately, the reality of this picture is that I'm at the heaviest I've ever been, looking like the girl I never wanted to look like. I have to make a change. I have to focus. I have to shift my direction from part-time attention to full-time attention. It's time to measure portions, to put down the chocolate (40 calories is 40 calories), and to stand up strong in the face of negative opportunities.
I want to post this photo everywhere I go to remind myself. My DH would probably think I was just posting a nice pic of us... but who am I kidding, he must know I'm disgusted with myself. And seriously, that is a really unflattering photo.
Time to change.
(On the bright side, my hair looked really good in the photo -- which is why I cut it out. I don't want to dampen the shock of looking at my butt.)