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Friday, January 18, 2013

What have I done?
I guess this is what I deserve. I can blame it on surgery, on travel, on the wind that made this a terribly unflattering photo... but the reality is that I have not been paying attention to what I eat. I have been eating too much. And now I look like this.

My darling husband deserves better.
I deserve better!
Perhaps I just had to get to this place before it was serious enough for me to take action. Perhaps I was testing myself, to see how much I could "get away with." Unfortunately, the reality of this picture is that I'm at the heaviest I've ever been, looking like the girl I never wanted to look like. I have to make a change. I have to focus. I have to shift my direction from part-time attention to full-time attention. It's time to measure portions, to put down the chocolate (40 calories is 40 calories), and to stand up strong in the face of negative opportunities.

I want to post this photo everywhere I go to remind myself. My DH would probably think I was just posting a nice pic of us... but who am I kidding, he must know I'm disgusted with myself. And seriously, that is a really unflattering photo.

Time to change.

(On the bright side, my hair looked really good in the photo -- which is why I cut it out. I don't want to dampen the shock of looking at my butt.)
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    Oh girl we all get there.... and it is very necessary indeed. Mine was when me and my husband were at a bar and some girl was hitting on him while I was in the bathroom. There were mirrors over by where he was sitting and as I walked up I saw myself in the mirror and what should have been a vision of "beauty and tiger wife" I was taken back at how I looked and he must be embarrassed this is "his wife."

    I think it's important to feel good about yourself and blah blah but who am I kidding? I'm extremely vain. I want to look giid and give my husband the good looking wife he deserves ;)

    You can do it!
    1856 days ago
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