The Elephant in the Room
Friday, January 18, 2013
Did you notice I didn't blog yesterday? It was a usual day of child care and cooking for family. I went to the gym. Gwen stayed in the nursery for an hour while I ran. Good workout! Think my knee is fine now. I have a little soreness from my new SP strength training workout I did the day before. She and I played actively together outside. I showered at home while she napped. Made a new recipe that is pretty healthy and was very well received by hubby, son in law, and 5 year old granddaughter, which is kind of unusual for pretty healthy recipes I try. I tracked my food and made a lot of healthy choices. My "no intense sweets" streak is still in tact, having done better in this area than I have done in years -- maybe ever. Sounds like a successful day, doesn't it?
Only, I'm leaving out the elephant in the room. No, it isn't me!! I'm still a size 4 sitting here. Last night I just gave myself permission to overeat. My problem was that I woke up at 3 am yesterday (like I had the night before, too) and ate way too many of my calories and didn't leave enough for the rest of the day. And at 10 o'clock last night I was way too hungry to sleep. So I ate 3 cups of dry corn flakes, a blood orange from my neighbor's yard, and 2 T of sunflower seeds and I didn't log them because I didn't want to and I didn't care. And I broke my streak of days eating within my calorie range. (I made a new record since counting = 14 days.) But after I broke my streak I wanted to cry.
Crying doesn't help; figuring out what went wrong helps. When I woke up this morning in the middle of the night, I remembered what WalkingAnnie taught me and I kept my eyes closed and eventually I went back to sleep. I got a good night's sleep and started my day with all my calories in front of me. I have started my streak again. I'm going to blog even when I'm not feeling really proud of myself, because I'm going to face it and not hide. (Thanks, Barb, for your blog that helped me make that choice.) I have a 5K to run tomorrow and my nephew is going to join me. I'm going to eat to run today!! It will be a good, healthy day.