Friday, January 18, 2013
Okay. Things are going Very Well here, on day 256 of tracking my food and a bunch of other things. This past two days I shifted gears a bit, and started paying attention in a different way to my food. It is not all put into the spark journal because I am beginning a period of asking my body what is enough. There has been this long standing values conflict in my life in regard to food, and obviously now is the time to examine this issue. The slowest loser has a blog post about social conscious that is in the ballpark with what has me conflicted.
My own food values are not so much shaped by world hunger, although I do Care about world hunger. They tend to be more personal
I believe in locally grown real food
I believe that a human being ought to think of getting some food, when the individual body needs it, and signals that need with hunger feelings, and that human does not really Need to count every calorie for life.
I believe if a person eats animals, it should be an animal that had a more or less natural happy life until it is humanely killed and prepared for consumption. I want the animal to have been treated in a way that it doesn't need to be injected with antibiotics to keep it alive in some nightmare.
I believe that "food like substances" (Pollan) are not actual food, and probably do not support good health.
So what is up with me living a life where I end up so drained of energy that I have this sort of thing in my house (the food like stuff as opposed to the *real* foods) and choose to eat those on a regular basis? Voila, values conflict, occurring where they often do way down in my subconscious - after all I deserve to have easy to fix stuff, right? I don't have to be Perfect, in fact I am working on that perfectionistic streak. Thing is, some values need to be honored.
I have been maintaining a "normal" BMi now since November 14th of 2012. Two months. It is time for me to eat and live in a way that honors my values. I am still going to write my food down in my journal. And I am shifting focus from the calorie content of the food, to the way I feel and how close it matches my own beliefs about what I need to eat to sustain a normal healthy weight.