Friday, January 18, 2013
It's been a good week. I have ate on the high side of my calorie alotment. I have fallen off once and binged. I have excerised although not with any consistency. I need to work on that. I need to work on a lot of things but like anything else I do I am taking them one at a time and priortizing putting the most important at the top and working my way down the list.
I am learning that I need more structure in my home life. I have a 3 day weekend coming and need to figure out what I want to do. It's going to be in the 60's so I will walk, Get those west facing windows washed as they are driving me crazy. Hubby wants to go see a movie and dinner tonite.
I am learning to let go of some of the things that just really aren't important but I have been packing them around all these years just taking up extra space in my suitcase of life. I brought my journal back out and having been journaling at every opportunity. I will get back to where the words just flow soon. I am learning that this is my life and I am the leader of it. At times I have a co pilot called husband but I am in control. I am now anyway. Somewhere over 13 years I gave that up for the most part. I had put my life in park. It is now back in drive. I don't have the overdrive button on but I know it's there to use when I need it. Only I can make these changes. Only I can put one foot in front of the other. Only I can cross each hurdle as they come. I can do it gracefully and with support or I can just let it make me stumble and crash. I chose the first. I am hardheaded and stuborn and push myself in 80% of my life except with my weight. I have chosen to look the other way. Now I look in the mirror, am liking the person looking back at me. She has a big heart. She's a good friend. She has just gotten lazy and forgetful in this part of her of life. No more. I have a horse to ride. ....