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My story

Friday, January 18, 2013

When i was a teenager, I was around 140 lbs. I was a good student but had a sneaky streak to me as well. I was never in the overly popular crowd, not the non-popular. I had good friends in both popular and non. I was in the middle. I am also the middle child. I got a bit rebellious toward the later part of high school and moved out with my then boyfriend, now my husband of 26 years much to my parents dismay. I started to gain the pounds. Between the beer and the quick processed food, I started to gain. I remember right before our wedding, I was horrified to step on the scale and see that I was almost 200 lbs. My husband was only 205 and 11 inches taller so this was hard. I still did nothing about it though. I also was a smoker all through my teenage and on years. Then I got pregnant. While I was so happy to be starting a family, I literally ate for 2. I worked in fast food at the time so ate most of my meals there at work. I gained 66 lbs during my pregnancy. I lost some after my beautiful daughter was born but not the 66 lbs gained for sure. Three years later and I was having my 2nd child. This time I was working at my current job, on my feet more often and not around the fast food. I gained only 24 lbs but still was hanging on to about 35-40 of my previous pregnancy weight. Another beautiful daughter but still no real desire to loose weight or quit smoking. This continued on for many years. Between the food and the smoking, I was increasingly getting angry that these two things were controlling me. Finally, one night as I was driving home, It was cold and snowy and I was out of cigarettes, I decided that I was done with them. I did not want them to control me any longer and instead of picking up cigarettes, I picked up nicorette. I then chewed the nicorette and continued to eat what I wanted no matter what it was or for whatever reason for two years. I remember the night clearly. I was feeling good about the fact that I no longer smoked but was not at all happy that I still needed two crutches- the nicorette and the food. I made a healthy meal of lean hamburgers one night. Usually I would eat two and my husband would eat the other two. I vowed to eat only one and save the other for the next day. I was satisfied with one and went to the kitchen to put the other away in the fridge. It never made it to the fridge. I ate it and still don't know why I did that. I decided right then and there that I really needed help. I started to see a behaviour counselor and over the last three years I have given up the nicorette and have begun the journey of discovering who I am and why I do what I do when I do. It is constant work but I love every minute of it. I not only am learning that only I am in control of my actions with food but also in my work life as well. Although it has been a long journey, Started out at my high of 286 two years ago and now down to 237, I would not change it because I have learned so much and am so fortunate to have a great family and job.

Walked 1.32 miles this morning. 89.58 to go!!
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    Thank you for sharing your story! I have been there where I ate something and realized I was using food as a crutch. It is the most sickening feeling, and it definitely can turn you off of food quickly. I'm glad you're here with us!
    1886 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    Good for you, you have made many positive changes in your life. You will just be getting better every day! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1886 days ago
    emoticon What a GREAT story! You and I started at close to the same ... I was a bit heavier. I posted pictures in my blog today. It's a journey, that's for certain!!!

    1886 days ago
    It is all about good health! Keep up the great work!
    1886 days ago
    So glad for you, that you found the tools to help you!
    1886 days ago
    Excellent progress! Keep it up!
    1886 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your story! Good for you for taking the necessary steps to become a healthier you!!! You've got this!! Little steps lead to big differences!

    Have a wonderful week-end!
    1886 days ago
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