Thursday, January 17, 2013
Today was an eating day where I felt preoccupied with thoughts of food throughout the day. Typically I am pretty good at staying busy and sidetracking the sabotaging voices in my head but not this time. I just wanted to eat, and eat then eat some more. I didn't necessarily binge but I definitely over did it, and will feel the effects tonight and today. I know I won't sleep as soundly tonight and will have a lack of motivation in the morning. I don't miss the very many days and nights which I suffered through. Above all I certainly don't miss the psychological and emotional toll binge eating took on me. I've been binge free for awhile now but understand that I need to be more aware and proactive on days like today. I know we all over indulge from time to time- but this was boredom eating- not for some over the top celebration. So my goal for the rest of this month will be to be more mindful of what I am eating and why, especially on my days to relax.