Thursday, January 17, 2013
I am so thankful for all the love and support my friends, family, co-workers, church friends, spark-friends, I am overwhelmed still by all the love and support. I truly wish I could see what you all saw in me a long time ago. But... so better NOW than Never.
I had debated about making Ben and Whitney videos of me so they had something (crazy thoughts) but now... I feel like I am really going to be ok and make it through this. Still one-day-at-a-time.
I was able to get a new therapist. I will start on Monday. He wants me to see him, a nutritionist, and my regular medical doctor. I am really looking forward to this and getting on with some healing.
Since Monday morning... my emotions have been mostly "in" check. I am feeling healthier and stronger. I added a little to my morning work-out today, and of course I obsessed about whether I was hungry / full. I usually have some carbs in the morning before I exercise. I didn't today, and I wondered if that's why I seemed "hungrier" all day. I still think it's in my crazy-head. So.... stupid and it really bothers me that I worry about it. But... duh... it's been only 15 days since really crazy eating.
I went and got my hair done tonight. Same old, same old... My hair-style really doesn't change much. I did add bangs a little while back. I mostly like them.
Overall... today was a pretty good day. I was so thankful for the texts and messages. They really do help me out a lot. Even random, silly texts and thoughts. I love that my brother still texts me his workouts and starts them out with Day 15 and reminds me how proud he is of me.
My children and school children are as sweet as ever. I reminded them we didn't have school on Monday and most of them moaned and wished we did have school (I have them brain-washed into thinking we are a pretty great class and that school is AWESOME).
Just feeling LOVED today. As it should always be right? I HOPE YOU are feeling LOVED too.