Does this life really belong to me??
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Life is kinda surreal at the moment. It doesn't feel like mine, and I don't mean in a bad way what so ever. Soo much is going on but not at the same time.
So we will start with yesterday which in of itself was INSANE. I met with my recruiter yesterday. We actually got most of the paperwork filled out to get me ready for MEPS. We found out today I might not be able to enlist until the divorce is over. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I'm a little dissapointed because I found out I would be able to go to the YMCA at no charge for being in a special op program. However on the other hand the additional time will give me a chance to get my fitness level up much higher which means my chances for getting drafted to be a diver increase. So it's a bitter sweet thing.
So I'm interested in being a Navy Diver. How this works is that I go to MEPS enlist and choose Navy Diver and then a 2nd option. I sign a contract that has a date to ship to bootcamp for the 2nd option. But I'm in the Diver "DEP" program. So what this means is that my name goes on a board, and I am essentially competing against other recruits. The higher my ASVAB and fitness, the higher my name goes on the board. 2 times every month they go through each region and draft however many divers they need. If I'm drafted I get a new contract with a new ship date. If my 2nd option ship date comes, then I go for the 2nd job and hopefully put in a package later to dive. So that's why the extra 3 months could be good for me.
So with that I really get to kick my butt into gear. I hit a personal record yesterday, though with me just starting to run again that might become a bit of a normal till I start hitting a plateau. I ran 2 miles in 21 mins with out stopping or walking!! Yay!!! I actually could have probably gone further but I had to leave to meet my recruiter. It's Jillian Michaels tomorrow and some much needed yoga.
So that's it for Navy business.
Work; I have a new work schedule that I am REALLY excited about. Mon, Tuesday 7am-3pm, Wed-Fri 3-11pm and sat & sun off! Score! I will have more time to workout and get things done and spend time with my sweetheart.
Yes I did say sweetheart :).... so I really haven't said much about this romance because it's really kinda been in the background not to mention it really kinda happened on its own. And not the kind of happening on its own but you know it. It was more the it's happening and BAM!!! It's there. I haven't known this guy very long. In fact it's only been maybe 2 months. I met him through the guy that used to sleep on Jake's couch. At first it was purely a physcial attraction, and then we were wrapped in each other's arms and I realized I was hopelessly in love with him. Ironically enough I found out that's the same night he realized he was in love with me. Talk about insane! I know it's not lust either. I know it's not because when I realized I was in love with him, it actually hurt. It made me want to cry. I don't even know how to put what I'm feeling into words and maybe that's why I haven't said anything. My friends are laughing at me, but only because they have never ever seen me like this.
Leave it to me to fall hopelessly in love as I'm enlisting in the Navy. It's ok. I'm enjoying myself soo much.
I'm soo incredibly happy these days and it just keeps increasing. That's why it doesn't feel like my life.
It just makes me realize how much life can be different, but you have to want it. It also goes to show how you truly need to love yourself before you can love another.
Here's to making dreams a reality. Blowing goals out of the water. And just being in love with life!!!
Too bad you can't see how big my smile is :)