Thursday, January 17, 2013
I keep trying to figure out with the help of my mom and friend, why I can't get the weight to budge! Well, I think we may have figured it out... STRESS!
I didn't even realize I was so stressed until today. I blew up.. flipped my lid.. got down right furious. I am not normally a pissed off person, not unless I'm uber stressed and my anxiety is getting to me.
I didn't recognize the anxiety to be super high like I normally do, and didn't realize I was so stressed out. Why? I dunno. Seems like every time I figure out how I react to stress and anxiety my body changes its ways and then I have to figure it out all over again. Maybe I didn't feel the physical symptoms as much because of working out and eating better too.
I need to take the time to listen to myself instead of constantly worrying about the housework and homework and everything else going on around me. Although, it would help if somebody would help out with the housework so I don't feel like every last speck is left for me to clean.
I realize now, that my first week before school I was asked to work by someone every day. I didn't get done what I wanted to get done so I could be prepared for the first couple weeks of school. When not being asked to work I was being asked to run errands. I just couldn't get a grip on my own life. First week of school is almost gone, still am not sure whats going on in some of my classes so that will stress me out too. Now that I realize these things, I can take control and fix it. Hopefully!
Now, hopefully I start seeing the changes that I want to see!
After today, my lesson learned... I need to pay closer attention to what my body is telling me.
On a positive note, I ran 28minutes and 2.5mi straight through, and finished off with walking so I could reach my 3.1mi distance and get my walk/jog trophy on SP! Woohoo! I remember not being able to run a mile in grade school without wanting to throw up and stopping to walk how many times. Crazy to know what my body is capable of doing!