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Stupid Spark Coach

Thursday, January 17, 2013

I know all you fat girls-- { don't send me angry mail. It's really just me talking to myself and not a personal attack on anyone else and their weight} are logging your food and working out like it's going out of style so I'm writing this blog for me and all the rest of us as I have been instructed by SparkCoach. I ate 2 slices of pizza today. I didn't feel good so, I didn't go to the grocery store. I also did not workout-- no excuses. I just didn't feel like it. I didn't even run this morning because my coach canceled. I am sure I could have run on my own but I didn't feel like it.

I really hate blog post that scream " Look at me and my awesomeness" or "Oh I am so pitiful I just need your loving adoration to remind me of how AWE-SOME I am". Then there is me. I'm generally happy and peaceful. I've lost just enough weight to be dangerous. I'm really not motivated because I'm pretty fab like I am. So where does that leave us?

50 lbs short of my goal. I am writing this blog to reinvigorate myself. I started to lose weight and get healthier last year because I was mad as HELL. No, not mad as H - E double hockey sticks but really really pissed. It was a true fire and brimstone anger. Now, well I'm like a size 12-14 as opposed to a 22. I'm really cute. I was cute before but now, honey I'm a real star. So, I am struggling with what does a hottie like me do to get back in the game?

I have changed but, I don't think my transformation is what most other people would expect. I follow my Spark Coach and I called it "stupid" not because it doesn't work but because it can not assess me as a real person. I answer questions and I get fed a "you can do it better response tomorrow". That's stupid. I am a complex, loving, and hopeful individual that will eat cake if it is front of her.

I was able to connect with a lot of my Spark Friends yesterday. You ladies (and ELLISH) are the reason this works. I am accountable to someone other than myself. IF you leave it up to me-- I .. well... let's just not leave this up to me. I am going to boot camp in the am. I am going to jump, crunch, lift, shake and get my hind parts in gear. I am so sick of excuses for being a slacker but, if I can't be honest with ya'll then who am I trying to fool?

Sending you only the sweetest DIVA kisses and warmest hugs!!!!

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    Ahh, I had one of those weekends of just not wanting to do anything healthy - working out, eating clean, etc. Boo. I'm glad you decided to turn it around!
    1826 days ago
    I LOVE it Ms. DIVA!

    You are telling it like IT IS... real life, no rose colored glasses. I am a member of Spark Coach too.... at least you are doing better than me, you are actually workin' it, I'm not, hopefully I will get around to it soon.

    You are the brightest start in the "Spark" sky - you are fabulous!
    I really truly mean that.


    1828 days ago
    Great blog.
    1829 days ago
    You listen here, lady:

    Been there. I hit 195 and had this moment of "OMG, I feel awesome. I AM awesome. Do I have to keep doing this?"

    I just want you to think for one second: If I feel this awesome now, how will I feel later? You have so much confidence inside your skin that I'm not talking about appearences. I'm talking about energy. I'm talking about pride in what you can and will accomplish.

    It's oh so tempting to say "I've come this far, and here is nice." But, if your goal was to get to California from New York would you stop in Oklahoma because the weather was starting to seem nicer?
    1829 days ago
    Hey, I ate pizza this week, too! And I needed it!

    I never did believe in the SparkCoach concept because it seemed canned and not sufficient for me. Sure, you need people to be accountable to, but Beth is right that you need to want whatever your goal is for yourself. I agree that, if you're happy where you are, stay at that weight. It isn't easy to stay at weight either! In many ways it's harder than losing, because there is no forward momentum. If you're looking for a challenge, maintaining is a heck of a one.
    1829 days ago
    Love this blog! You need to make this work for you--you're not doing this for me or any Spark friends, your husband, or your co-workers. You need to get what you need out of this program. I agree--if you're happy at your size; stop worrying about your size. Focus on being healthy!! And, you know what? You are damn cute!!!!
    1829 days ago
    You are so wonderful, so funny and so lucky to have had some yummy pizza. As my husband tells me, "If you are going to eat it enjoy it, if you are going to torture yourself about it later than don't eat it!" We are all human dagnabbit! You are correct in assessing the fabulousness that is you. How fantastic you feel that when so many others beat themselves up for no reason every day. Where did you get that fiercesome self-esteem of yours? You should bottle it and sell it. I would buy a bottle for sure! I know in my heart of hearts that you will get back to the healthy ways because there is no going back from size 12-14 baby! emoticon emoticon
    1829 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/17/2013 7:19:03 PM
    You ate pizza today...

    You ate pizza today!
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    (Not to dwell or anything, but I love pizza. Unless something truly horrible happens on the same day, any day with pizza is pretty awesome.)
    1830 days ago
    Let it all out. emoticon We all have these kind of days once in a while. I'm glad that you've decided to focus on getting physical tomorrow, but remember to be kind to yourself today. You are a strong, beautiful, and AMAZING woman! You will figure it out, find the right balance in your life, and you WILL get it DONE!
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    1830 days ago
  • MALA77
    Hahaha!! You're awesome!!! And perfectly honest!!! Sometimes there ARE days when I just don't feel like it either!!! But you're doing good if you've gone from a 22 to a 12!!! YOU ROCK!!! lol

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    1830 days ago
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