Thursday, January 17, 2013
This is more of a status update instead of my typical blog entry. I'll get back to my regularly scheduled programming later. Here's a word about where I am and how I'm using Medifast as one of my weight reduction tools...
I took some time out to rethink my plan. Medifast was not working for me "as-is" so I decided to modify their eating plan to fit my needs.
Medifast is built around an
-extremely low calorie intake (800 - 900 a day),
-low calories from fats and sugars,
-lots of fiber,
-lots of water,
-sustained moderate exercise as opposed to strenuous exercise
My brain and muscles didn't like the extremely low calorie intake. At my previous typical weight of 275 my body required about 2300 - 2400 calories (with a sedentary life style). Going down to 800 a day and increasing to moderate exercise, my brain was not responsive and I was distressed more frequently. I didn't like who I was emotionally or how I reacted to circumstances. And I know I need my emotional stability to make this change work. As for muscles, due to a previous injury I already lost a lot of muscle mass in my right leg. I had just gotten to walking well, 2 to 3 miles at 3 to 5 days a week. With the change to the 800 calories, my muscles in the right leg became weaker again. My leg no longer felt stable even for walking. I also had a foot injury (due to walking incorrectly) that needed time to heal.
I realize some people may not agree or may think I'm deflecting my inability to "stick with the program". In other words, the "they's" of the world may think I'm making excuses for failure. I feel some of that from my wife who started Medifast last year with me and got rid of almost all her desired weight. Even though I've shared my thoughts and reasoning with her, she still doesn't get it. Now if I let this get to me and de-rail my weight changes that would be using something as an excuse to fail. But I'm past that stage in personal growth were other people's feelings can block me from my goal. I will use this as an opportunity to strengthen my resolve. I don't have to get mad and backlash. I say loud and proud "I'm the one getting rid of this weight... not you. How I choose to do it is my business." Nener nener nener ;-D
I've accepted that I have to do it my way or it will fail long term. I can't get rid of weight anyone else's way. Just because 800 calories worked for someone else doesn't mean it will work for me because I am the only me there is. Even if I had a twin, I would still be the only me. I feel strong because I understand the differences between my wife and I when it comes to weight reduction so I don't have to feel like a failure. For the record, I've got a lot more weight to lose, have a lot less muscle mass to start, have a much more sedentary lifestyle, and have no prior experience with good eating habits or good weight maintenance habits. Taking care of my health-wise, I'm a hot mess and I own that. I also own that I want to change, have to change, need to change. And I need it to last.
So I will use whatever tool I need in whatever why I choose to get there.
Now back to my regularly scheduled programming. As I side note, it's funny that I restarted this change on the same date as when I started the program last year. Nothing purposeful about it, just how it worked out. Serendipity!