Thursday, January 17, 2013
It would take a books worth of pages to tell you how I got where I am today.... and to be completely honest I don't think I've really figured out what truly happened yet. To make a long story short, this summer was not the best. I slipped into what can be best described as a funk, and I've been there since. The only positive thing, is I have used some of that time spent in conversation with my self, to force me to face some tough truths. Truth is it doesn't matter how I got here, I am responsible to get myself out.
One of the hardest things has been watching my daughter gain weight too. She had a freak bike wreak in the summer of 2011, and by the grace of God a neck x-ray revealed a mass the size of a small grapefruit in her thyroid. Again by the grace of God it was benign and removed last February. Her specialist said it would take about a year before weight loss would be likely. She starts high school next year, and wants to be healthy. Given my weight was never an issue until I turned 13, I want to be for her what I never had a partner in health.
Thus begins our journey, and I have been cramming for it's start much like I would have a final in college. I tried WW a few years ago, and was had good results, but I just quit. This has now become my biggest fear. As I have scoured the net for tips, tricks, and how to use Points Plus I have found one thing that seems to be a constant. When I google things I am curious about I am directed to blogs that no longer exist.... This deeply saddens me, as I think some of these people were likely just like me. Excited, anxious, and trying to improve their lives just to disappear from the radar. We start the program Saturday to give her time to adjust before school on Monday and I am praying to not disappear or quit.
Hopefully this blog will help keep me focused. I don't really share much with people in my life, and I hope by sharing my thoughts with strangers who can understand what I am trying to do I will have a bigger chance of success.